I have been in the fediverse for 5 years now, so I think an introduction is in order.

I am a spoonie, neurodivergent, an anarchist, a wannabe write, a wannabe activist, cis man and much more.

I call myself a spoonie because I have significantly less spoons compared to most people. To have less spoons means that I get exhausted from less activity and need to fill most of my day with resting or low effort activities. This is my disability, there aren’t much most people can do, that I can’t, I just can’t do as much of it. It is not new to me that I get exhausted faster than the people around me, but since my burnout about 2 years ago, this have been significantly worse. I currently don’t see any signs that this is going to get better. I have accepted it as a fact that I am a spoonie and have learned (and still learning) how to live my life without being exhausted.

I am neurodivergent, I am autistic with ADD. I started to realise that I am autistic in 2021, and in 2023 I was diagnosed with ADD. For me to discover my neurodivergence late in life have help me understand myself, and helped me understanding other people. For all my life I have been taught me being myself is off-putting, and I didn’t understand why other people felt like that about me. Knowing that I am neurodivergent, means that I know that most people are different from me, that they perceive the world in a very different way. This helps me understand why most people have been unable to understand me, and thus found me off-putting (when I was not masking well enough).

I call myself an anarchist because I believe that the ideal form of society is a society without coercion or concentration of power. I strive to live up to those ideals as much as possible in every aspect of my life. I also strive to do as much as possible to support struggles for liberation and against oppression. This is also why I call myself a wannabe activist. Ideally I want to support various struggles by participating directly in them. But partly due to my disability I have not been able to find a sustainable way for me to be an activist yet.

I call myself a wannabe writer, because as long as I can remember, I have wanted to write stories or expressing ideas and analysis about the world. But in the space between the demands of society, being a spoonie and having low self-esteem, I haven’t found much space for myself to commit to writing yet.

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