@Ferrous The pain and regret I feel is, because I remember how wonderful it was to walk those inner mindfields. How much value and energy it gave me. I miss it so much. But I don't dare to go back, because I have kids and I am a responsible adult and they do depend on me "functioning". I don't want to function anymore. I just want to be a brain in a jar, just for a while, so that I can truely relax again. I'm so exhausted. 😭

Anyways, thanks for naming the trauma! 3/3 #ActuallyAutistc

@Ferrous I feared it would interfere too much with my responsibilities. I cannot allow me to loose myself in my inner mindfields, b/c I will either miss appointments and my kids will starve to death or become so frustrated from interruption that it would drain all my energy that my kids would suffer differently. So I have stopped to engage in it entirely. I didn't notice until I burned out and tried again as part of my recovery. I was interrupted and suffered a meltdown. 2/ #ActuallyAutistc

@Ferrous I watched your lecture on "Monotropism & Wellbeing" on YT today and you said something that resonated with me intensely: "We've been traumatized out of trust in the flow state." (As monotropistic adults who have experienced and frustrated over constant interruptions.) I feel that with so much pain and regret.

Ever since I became a responsible adult with dependencies I have not really allowed myself to enter a deep flow state over passionate intellectual topics. 1/ #actuallyAutistc

Can we all take a moment to recognize how sick of a society we are if we have people spending most of their productive "working time" looking for income rather than actually doing something intrinsically productive that gives back?

I *still* can't find a job to the point it feels like my #programming skills are degrading.

#ActuallyAutistc #uspol

@rpbook That means that nobody uploaded location yet in your region.
We currently only have 48 locations worldwide. That's not a lot, and we need folks like you and any #ActuallyAutistc folks seeing this to add new locations, so that people can actually see locations relevant to them.
If everyone uploaded a couple of locations we are familiar with, soon enough there will be a bunch of unfamiliar locations on the website for all to prep with.

prepped.to has its first location in Finland 🎉

And it's a very cute location: The Moomin Museum 😻

Check it out: https://prepped.to/locations/muumimuseo-moomin-museum

And of course, if you're #ActuallyAutistc or think you might be, add a location too 🙏

@moomin

prepped.to | Sensory details for Muumimuseo (Moomin Museum)

Detailed sensory profile and accessibility information for Muumimuseo (Moomin Museum), including lighting, noise levels, smells, human load, service procedures, toilets, and payment methods.

I need, like, an Advent calendar that finishes on January 2nd, when I can get back into a proper routine and not have to make small talk any more.

#actuallyAutistc

So I’m one episode into #plur1bus and so far this seems like an analogy for what it’s like to be #actuallyAutistc
Everyone seems to magically know what everyone else is thinking (through some creepy mechanism unavailable to you), the world is an absolute dumpster fire (yet everyone is fine with it), and they want to research what’s wrong with you so they can “fix you”. WHAT IF I DON’T WANT TO BE FIXED?!
I sometimes wish that questionnaires about autism-related topics came with the option "Strongly agree but I've trained myself not to do that"
Questionnaires don't seem to account for masking, which seems a major design flaw for this area of study? #ActuallyAutistc
Pourquoi tout est de plus en plus difficile ?

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