Paradox

Liquorice allsorts. You asked me once
why I said I was a paradox. I never
got around to answering. I’m not
a paradox, I’m an assortment of paradoxes,
colourful, sweet, salty, an acquired taste.
I’ve been spat out enough times. I tried
to warn you off. You had to learn it for yourself:
you can’t handle flavour this complex.
No, no, don’t worry. I’m not offended.
I knew your taste wasn’t mature enough. #ifIMTooMuchGoFindLess #liquorice #mine #paradox #poetry #taste

Two Years

I’ve never been more alone.
I want to call you, right now, out of nowhere and scream.
I want to scream at you that I hate you.
And I hate you even more right now because I can’t.
Because the abuse didn’t end when I left.
Because you’re still playing fucking games.
I don’t grieve losing you.
I grieved you long before I even knew I’d lost you,
before I learned I’d never had you to begin with.
But I need to grieve.
I need to grieve me.
I need to grieve the fact that I gave you everything.
Everything.
My love.
My time.
My good will.
My innocence.
My unconditional positive regard.
My silence.
The times I didn’t complain.
The times I didn’t tell you how it hurt.
The times I told friends I was fine.
The way I let you erase pieces of me
because I believed love meant compromise
and it took me a while to realise you never did.
Even now — as I hold my tongue and
do not tell your children
the truth about their father.
My words.
My words of love and reassurance.
My words of support.
My word. My vows were honest.
You cannot say the same.
My peace.
I built you up. More fool me.
I defended you.
I told them they were wrong.
I said you loved me.
Because you said you loved me.
You took everything.
Everything I offered you and more.
And even then,
as you bled me dry,
as my ground split from drought,
my feelings for you shriveled detritus,
my hopes for us rotting carcases
that smell of durian and narcissism,
even then you still squeeze for more.
Isn’t it time you just let go?

#anniversary #dv #grief #love #mine #narcissism #poetry #realtionships

Death toll jumps to 90 in #China coal #mine blast

https://www.reuters.com/world/china/four-dead-90-trapped-north-china-coal-mine-accident-xinhua-reports-2026-05-22/

The death toll from a gas explosion at a coal mine in northern China's Shanxi ​province has jumped to 90, state media CCTV ‌reported on Saturday.

Passive Smoking

Can I blame Apple? If we could add storage
to the phone, I wouldn’t be clearing out my voice notes.

This one takes me by surprise. I remember
the night, but had completely forgotten keeping
this sound bite.

We’re laughing and happy, and you tell me a joke
about a dyslexic Angel with a triangular halo.
Now I sit here crying.

I thought the fever had broken,
but I know how griefs work,
how sometimes they can be forgotten
until the moment they choose —

ambush

I am injured, but it is not a fatal wound,
and healing begins with delete.


#ambush #breakUp #grief #healing #joke #loss #love #memories #mine #poetry #unexpected

#Balls! #mine #naked #nudity

Good morning! #cock #penis #mine #dickpic