Got back into the attic today. This photo feels like it actually encapsulates the scope of this place.

The foreground is one bag of insulation in place.

The image captures about *half* of the building's attic.

But I managed to cover one room with a little under 2 and a half bags (the red square in the second version of the image). So that's 2 of 12 rooms insulated!!

And that was the goal for this year, so I'm feeling pretty good about it!

#thisOldClownHouse #bingo2026 #masculineJoy

#MasculineJoy moment the other day:

Discovering that I love the smell of 3in1 oil while caring for new (and old) circular saw blades.

I tore 3 box springs down into component parts today as part of completing project "Surprise Dumpster".

#thisOldClownHouse

Also, idk why standing in a dumpster and stomping things has so much #MasculineJoy for me, but it does and thus the past 3 days have been full of fun for me.

body hair appreciation post 😍 🥰 😍 🥰

the texture of the hair in my armpits is so *interesting* now!!

and mmm, the leg hair continues to grow grow grow!

truly never expected to like this part but I *love* it

#trans #transJoy #masculineJoy

I am ready for rolling-up-the-sleeves-of-my-flannels weather!

I am probably at my most attractive when I am rolling up my sleeves and revealing my forearms. Have a turning wrist, a bulging vein, a flexing muscle. That tattoo was a secret until I peeled back the plaid and revealed it. Don't you just want to... Take a closer look??

#masculineJoy #transJoy

For some reason drinking out of a can is a #MasculineJoy inducing activity for me.

So I'm drinking a sparkling flavored water on my #fasting days now lol

One of the things I like the most about masculinity:

it feels like permission to be soft, if not a mandate for softness.

When I was trying to be a woman it felt like I always had to be hard. I had to be vigilant against sexist bullshit. I was aware of the ways I was seen, and I was aware of how my femininity was used to minimize my strength, my intelligence, my agency. I knew the lines people would draw based on my behavior, and i knew the history of sexism that influenced those lines, and I knew that the best way to combat it was to be hard.

I couldn't even enjoy shit like playing healers in Overwatch, even though nobody knew I was (supposedly) a girl, because I knew that some of the people I played with thought that was my place because of my gender. That mine was not to fight or lead or explore, but to sit back and support men in their endeavors.

I liked caring for people; I hated the way that caring was linked to my gender, and then amplified to my whole personality, when i am so, so, so much more than that.

Now that I'm embracing masculinity, I get such easy joy in softness. Being gentle and making space feels like a revolutionary act. Soft, gentle masculinity feels kind and loving and right. I get joy from all these things that gave me complication before. I delight in revolutionary kindness, instead of buckling under revolutionary hardness.

When I asked myself, "what kind of woman do I want to be," the answer was always somewhere in the vicinity of "strong."

When I ask myself "what kind of person do I want to be," the answer is murky, empty, unclear.

When I ask myself, "what kind of man do I want to be?" the answer is so easy and simple and strong. A kind one. A gentle one. One who makes people feel safe. One who cares for the people around me.

Feels like the framework of my ideals is actually pushing me towards a person I truly want to be, instead of a complicated balancing act.

and I know it's a mental thing, all of it--few people look at me and see not-a-woman, and I'm sure that nobody looks at me and sees anything approximating "man." The way I'm being perceived by others isn't actually changing. But the way I see myself, the lines I draw for myself...they're at much more comfortable angles now.

#MasculineJoy #transJoy #transmasc

I hate that the lil hairs on my jawline don't show up on camera 😂 😭

they're SO LONG!!! I know they're basically invisible to anyone who isn't me and doesn't have 34 years of looking at my basically hairless self but omg they're so long i can't stop staring 🥺 😭

#transJoy #masculineJoy #transmasc