About two months ago I have a rather underwhelming convention experience. First time I ever went home from a convention without even getting close to breaking even. There were very few visitors at this three day con, there was a *lot* of downtime. It was so comically bad, my brain couldn't even pin in on my lack of skill or reach.
Still, when I left home the second day, I looked into the mirror and I looked so tired, already knowing how bad the day would go. And that image stuck with me. So much so, that I started sketching it and finding the topic for my latest youtube video ( youtu.be/Xe6unuXINNY ) about losing passion.
I'm not currently in a bad place with my relationship to art, but I've been in the trenches, fighting to like making art again. And once in a while the demons rear their ugly heads still.
#reflection #innerdemons #art