"Saving me, raping me"

The song "Haunted" by Evanescence can be interpreted in different ways. I see it primarily as a struggle against alcohol addiction. Viewed from this perspective, the lyrics describe a state of inner emptiness and disorientation that often precedes the escape into alcohol. The speaker feels "sohollow inside" and cannot find "what keeps me here." The "long-lost words" whispering to him could represent the initially seductive promises of alcohol, comfort, oblivion, or a sense of fulfillment. Yet despite this tempting voice, the inner vacuum remains, while the addiction ("I know you're still there") is constantly present, lurking in the background.

The struggle becomes increasingly intense and ambivalent as the song progresses. The lines "Watching me, wanting me / I can feel you pull me down" reflect the constant temptation and the strong pull of the substance. The inner conflict becomes particularly poignant in the contrasting feelings of "Fearing you, loving you", a classic characteristic of dependency, where hate and love for the addictive substance exist side by side. The extremely harsh juxtaposition of "Saving me, raping me" illustrates this ambivalence in a brutal way: alcohol is seen as a temporary savior from emotional distress, yet at the same time it violates the soul and will of the individual. The resolution "I won't let you pull me down" represents, in this context, the desperate but determined fight against the destructive power of addiction, a rebellion against the looming loss of control.

"Fearing you, loving you", captured with SDXL.

Original song: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tjDlL87sHMw

#innerDemons #toxicLove #hauntedSoul #lyricArt #DarkArt #DepressionArt #SDXL #AIArt #stablediffusion

Showcasing some of my work done on Procreate

The Silent Agony of 24/7 Chronic Pain: PainSyndrome
A glimpse into the BasBaz darkness.
This time-lapse captures 'PainSyndrome'. A girl's face emerges from behind a wall, eyes down in fear. Chronic pain grips her 24/7, a ceaseless agony until the body screams and bleeds. Yet, unseen by all, her pain is hers alone.
2025
basbaz
anon_4601
Created on: iPad Pro
With: PROCREATE ❤️

https://peertube.uno/w/bzoML9PphigF5m7GXLJES5

Thanks for watching!

❓️Question for the geeks:
I use my #iPadPro M2 only for Procreate. I'd like to use it for more but can't stand #iPadOS. Any tips to run #Linux via VM/UTM on M2 while keeping iOS for my❤️ Procreate?

#AppleiPad #iPadPro #Applepencil #PROCREATE #BasBazArt #MastodonArt #PeerTube #art #InnerDemons #TimeLapse #ComicStyle #MentalHealth
#GraphicMedicine #MentalHealthAwarenes #TherapeuticArt
#EndTheStigma #MentalHealthMatters

The Silent Agony of 24/7 Chronic Pain: PainSyndrome

PeerTube

Showcasing some of my Procreate work

Realizing Solitude & The Cost of Survival: The_Cost_Of_Living

A glimpse into the BasBaz darkness.

This time-lapse captures the creation of 'The_Cost_Of_Living' that portrays a young figure facing the harsh realization that he/she is utterly alone. The hybrid style of drawing, kind of realism, and disconnected cyborg lines hints at a dystopian reality where people must sell parts of their bodies to survive simply because they cannot rely on anyone else. The image evolved constantly, resolving into classic B&W with piercing whites against deep black
2025
basbaz
anon_4601
Created on: iPad Pro
With: PROCREATE ❤️

https://peertube.uno/w/vqVVEQgTBjz7g5TnML8Aat

Thanks for watching!

❓️️Geek's Question: I use my iPadPro exclusively for Procreate. I'd like to use it for more but can't stand iPadOS. Any tips on running Linux on my M2 while keeping iOS for my ❤️ Procreate?

#AppleiPad #iPadPro #Applepencil #PROCREATE #BasBazArt #MastodonArt #PeerTube #TimeLapse #InnerDemons

Realizing Solitude & The Cost of Survival: The_Cost_Of_Living

PeerTube

Showcasing some of my work done on iPad Pro using Procreate

Not Just a Geisha, Disturbing Patterns & Sadness Behind the Mask: Just_Gheisha

A glimpse into the BasBaz darkness.

This time-lapse captures the creation of 'Just_Gheisha', documenting a long search for expression through intricate graphic patterns. It also reveals a sad woman in geisha attire, visibly disturbed and hiding a broken soul behind a facade of beauty
2025
basbaz
anon_4601
With: PROCREATE ❤️
On: iPad pro (m2)

https://peertube.uno/w/6CrnPiEz7FJbeqECrmk54Y

❓ Question 4 the geeks: I use my iPadPro exclusively for Procreate. I'd like to use it for more but can't stand iPadOS. I'm trying to install Linux via a VM (UTM), but tutorials only work on older models. Any tips on running Linux on my M2 while keeping iPadOS for my ❤️ Procreate?

#art #basbaz #InnerDemons #TimeLapse #DigitalPainting #ArtProcess #ArtTimeLapse #ObsessiveThoughts #iPad #MentalDisorderArt #applepencil #iPadPro #Procreate #UTM #Apple #LINUX #LinuxOnIpad #iPadRunningLinux

Not Just a Geisha: Disturbing Patterns & Sadness Behind the Mask

PeerTube

Growth doesn’t come without a fight. Self-Growth paired with I Am Your Disease confronts inner darkness and the brutal truth of healing: growth happens when we face what tried to destroy us. #PoeticBipolarMind #DaveWhiteIllustrations #EmotiveFusionArt #InnerDemons #ArtAndPoetry

https://poeticbipolarmind.blog/confronting-the-shadow-that-shapes-us/?utm_source=mastodon&utm_medium=jetpack_social

Confronting the Shadow That Shapes Us

Dave White’s Self-Growth and Kiana Jimenez’s I Am Your Disease confront the brutal reality of healing. Where the poem gives voice to addiction and inner destruction, the illustration reveals growth as resistance—messy, painful, and defiant. Together, they show that becoming whole means facing the shadow, not pretending it was never there.

Poetic Bipolar Mind
Group Therapy: HUNTR/X from KPop Demon Hunters

YouTube
A volte il vero orrore è guardarsi allo specchio.
E scoprire che il mostro ha la tua stessa forma.

“Dylan Dog e i fantasmi che ci abitano” è online.

#michiyospace #dylangdog #fumetto #bonelli #sclavi #paura #desiderio #psicologia #dark #arte #horror #riflessione #umanità #mostriinteriori #literature #innerlife #innerdemons #fear #desire #psychology #darkness #art #reflection #humanity
A volte il vero orrore è guardarsi allo specchio.
E scoprire che il mostro ha la tua stessa forma.

“Dylan Dog e i fantasmi che ci abitano” è online.

#michiyospace #dylangdog #fumetto #bonelli #sclavi #paura #desiderio #psicologia #dark #arte #horror #riflessione #umanità #mostriinteriori #literature #innerlife #innerdemons #fear #desire #psychology #darkness #art #reflection #humanity

Sometimes the real horror is looking in the mirror
and realizing the monster has your shape.

“Dylan Dog e i fantasmi che ci abitano” is online.
About two months ago I have a rather underwhelming convention experience. First time I ever went home from a convention without even getting close to breaking even. There were very few visitors at this three day con, there was a *lot* of downtime. It was so comically bad, my brain couldn't even pin in on my lack of skill or reach.

Still, when I left home the second day, I looked into the mirror and I looked so tired, already knowing how bad the day would go. And that image stuck with me. So much so, that I started sketching it and finding the topic for my latest youtube video ( youtu.be/Xe6unuXINNY ) about losing passion.

I'm not currently in a bad place with my relationship to art, but I've been in the trenches, fighting to like making art again. And once in a while the demons rear their ugly heads still.

#reflection #innerdemons #art
#News #Rumores | ¿Qué fue lo que vimos en la filtración de @Arach_07? @AlexFromCC y @DanielRPK en referencia a lo de #MrNegative y los #InnerDemons ponen en duda su aparición en #SpiderManBrandNewDay.
Fuente: @MCUFilmNews, @DanielRPK, @AlexFromCC (https://x.com/MCUFilmNews/status/1952750080899084323?t=8tyH3gvYee-onRiNyg0-ZQ&s=19)