JEEEEZ, fronting after this long is weird…

This is Renn, I haven’t been out in about two years. I don’t even know if I have a category on this blog for my posts yet, it’s been so long since I last fronted. Additionally, I came to front because Lēna was feeling out of it in the shower, so I took over so she could rest. I am not entirely sure how long she’ll be out, but I’m here for the time being at the wheel, so to speak, to give her a rest and get ahead on the system’s projects so that she can take a breather. She seems to be okay and safe and in relatively good spirits, just mentally tired.

The same could be said for the body, in all honesty. This H1 + H2 experiment that she’s started is frankly a stroke of genius and I’m glad that we’re in this good of shape – it’s about 3:20 AM as I am writing this and I was able to get our social media posts scheduled up to a week in advance, June 4th, to be precise. I don’t consciously feel super tired yet, but seeing as it’s late and I did have a midnight coffee, it’s better to be safe than sorry, especially if I switched in because Lēna was feeling out of it. I should probably consider going to sleep soon ish rather than making even more videos until the ass crack of dawn.

So it’s bedtime for me, or at least I’m going to attempt to sleep. Emerson is sleeping beside me, and honestly it’s wonderful to see him again. I’ve missed him terribly. The headspace is nice and very peaceful, but getting some time in the outside world is good and I have greatly needed it, I think.

This is all for now. If I am in front tomorrow, I will say hi then. If I am not, let this be my goodbye until I see y’all next time.

Much love,

Renn

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I probably did too much today.

But I had therapy for the first time since March  and it felt productive? My therapist suggested that I reach out to my doctor about getting an anti-anxiety med to make blood draws easier, and I just might do that.

We also talked about my increase in energy since adding the H2 blocker to my med regimen and all the fears I have that we’re gonna crash mentally and physically in the next week or so, and he walked me through what the worst case scenario would be (I’d survive, it would just be shitty because I would have to go back to the drawing board all over again). I still can’t tell if the conclusion we reached was comforting or not.

I’m debating whether or not I should shower tonight because it’s 2 AM, the only real towel we have in the house is disgusting, and frankly, I am getting tired. In any case, I should probably wander off.

Stay tuned for more magic, y’all.

-Allēna

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I went to my long expected GI super-specialist appointment yesterday.

They’ve ordered a lot of tests, including a proper test for MCAS and an upper GI scope. The week beforehand is gonna be hell on earth but I am hoping it’ll be worth it…

-Allēna

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The dual antihistamine experiment continues..

AND I WAS ABLE TO HAVE CAFFEINE TODAY FOR THE FIRST TIME IN ALMOST A YEAR WITHOUT REACTING POORLY

I DIDN’T NEED A NAP, EITHER

I haven’t been this happy in a long time.

-Allēna

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The H1/H2 blocker experiment appears to be working well so far.

I took both today and I was significantly less tired  this afternoon. I’ll see how I feel tomorrow.

-Allēna

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