When the strange and seemingly omniscient wall in headspace appears to have decided you pass the vibe check..

-Allēna

#animation #Collage #did #dissociativeIdentityDisorder #MadMastodon #shortvideo #Video #videoclip #weirdart

so singlet people just out here always being aware they are them. just hanging out and looking at your arm and it just being a part of you? not even questioning reality at like all? just alone in their heads? couldn't be me.

Seriously though today was an eye-opening experience learning the difference between the way they think, exist, be compared to my multiple messes. I'm really starting to think of DID as a neuro divergence way of experiencing the world. in that community I find more relatable content and information and acceptance.

Also more and more i I'm learning about this co-op of mine and how there is no core person, there is no leader here. whomever was the originator of this body disappeared long ago. i don't know where but there isn't one "person" here if that makes sense..And the idea of a leader, someone trying to push us forward or pass knowledge around is bizarre to us. there are rules for the body but I'd never decide for someone else what we all should do.. it's like associating or melding.. abhorrent. Like murdering one of us. that's just our opinion on ourselves and nothing to do with whatever anyone else wants as I'd fight for whatever you need to support yourself in healing.

also discovered when we talk about past therapists and my therapist points out how it is 'not him" that he is trying to make me feel safe where we see it as like jeez, this guy is so in need of an ego boost and he's trying to be a pickme #notalltherapist. Took him explicitly saying his meaning for us to realize that.

I think my main roles as Rob/in is being the interpreter because holy fuck does his world, this outer world speak a completely different language while using the same words.

enough rambling, going to eat my emotionally support potato chips and I guess idk use hashtags since I'm brave enough to see if other #plural #DissociativeIdentityDisorder #therapy people can maybe relate. though cool if you don't. realizing each of us has whole other worlds of ways we experience this "reality" that doesn't really get talked about.. but imagine that, just sitting there and always being yourself...ick

An empathic shout out for Dissociative Identity Disorder Awareness Day.
Wishing great fortitude and peace to all those managing DID.
In friendship.

#DID #Mentalhealth #DissociativeIdentityDisorder

Damn it, River.

My fucking headmate thought it was an excellent and hilarious fucking idea to schedule a neurologist appointment on the day our father died of brain cancer nine years prior and then make me handle it. At least Lazarus had the fucking foresight to get it switched to a virtual appointment several damn days ago so I didn’t have to go anywhere.

I’m never letting Mr. Batshit For Brainholes schedule anything ever again. This wasn’t fucking funny.

But at least we have that out of the way, and an EEG is scheduled for February 18. They might strobe the fuck out of our brainhole during that, so brace yourselves for utterly batshit post seizure posts from us truly. 😭

Fun fucking times. Thank you, Lazarus, for your excellent harm reduction work. At least you didn’t try to punk me for once.

I somehow summoned the energy (likely due to sheer irritation at River’s bullshit idea of a joke) to put clothes on and then shave my face later, so have selfies in honor of this most dubious occasion.

My left hand does whatever the fuck it wants, I guess. But at least this was a nice bit of gender euphoria today.

Once more, with my entire ass, FUCK YOU, RIVER.

-Allēna

#2SLGBTQIA #agender #AntiPsychiatry #badJoke #CurrentEvents #dissociativeidentitydisorder #femadjacent #gayselfie #grief #headmates #MadMastodon #MadStudies #nonbinary #plurality #polygender #Prank #River #selfie #sliceOfLife #System #womanadjacent #Xavier

I’m bored, so have a collection of memes that describe my headmate Castor.

He’s the system’s original host, and is known for showing up, giving Zero Fucks, Saying Very Cryptic Things, and then disappearing again.

What a fucking guy.

-Lazarus

#DIDSystem #dissociativeIdentityDisorder #headmates #MadMastodon #MadStudies #neurodivergence #plural #plurality

I was clicking around the blog after months in a dormancy coma and I’ve gotta say…

I love what my headmates have done with the place.

Pretty neat.

Have Allēna’s and Eight’s masterpiece album Mago as a treat before you go. If you’re finding the system via the MadMastodon tag or related ones, I think you’ll like what it has to say. It’s all about deconstructing a high control faith, surviving psychiatry and long term abuse, and finding ourselves. Enjoy.

-Castor (he/it), the system’s original host.

#DIDSystem #DIDThings #dissociativeIdentityDisorder #exmormon #MadMastodon #mentalHealth #OurMusic #plural #plurality

Will my headmates ever get their shit together and stop attempting to hit each other with chairs?

No clue. Laz has no idea how to be a fucking person, I think, despite being the single most charismatic individual I’ve ever met.

This photo sums up how I feel about their antics, pretty much…

However, my darling Littlebeany has been nearby, so I got some lovely photos of her.

What a good baby she is!

It’s good to be back. I’ve missed you all.

-Castor

#catsoffediverse #CatsOfMastodon #DIDSystem #dissociativeIdentityDisorder #Littlebeany #plurality

So my phone is in a hostage situation, apparently…

This actually fucking happened. My phone is named the fucking HOSTAGE on Google.

Which one of my fucking headmates did this?! Since we’re mostly integrated, the world may never know…

-Allēna

#DIDThings #dissociativeIdentityDisorder #Prank #SystemsOfMastodon

Lazarus speaks a dialect all their own.

Here are a few examples. Images are from our Bluesky account because I joined by accident trying to make Bridgyfed work yesterday, lol.

Before the “chronically sick” shirt, they were wearing a shirt in headspace that was the same sort of thing, except with pink italicized text that read “want me to bone apple yeet you into the next life lmao”, whatever that means.

I think Lazarus may be the dumbest smart person I’ve ever met.

Sigh…

-Allēna

#bullshit #DIDThings #dissociativeIdentityDisorder #GraphicDesign #headmates #headspace #Lazarus #silliness #TShirts