Life as a polyamorous person can often be being in several different "stages" of relationships at once.

This weekend I have felt like the relationship with my lover is ending. Processing the sadness and disappointment with remembering good memories ❤️‍🩹

But I have also had moments of intense flirting and connection with my new date. We had our second lunchdate Friday and will have our first evening date tomorrow 💖

And then there are friends and Slow Lori that gives me stability and undoubted love. 💝Despite having one of her partners visiting, Slow Lori took some time to call me so I could vent some of my complex emotions.

Being in all these "stages" means lots of feelings to flow in-between taking quite a bit of energy 🙃
#PolyamorousEveryDay
#Polyamory
#LotsOfFeelings

Thanks to a dear friend for a lovely evening of tea, doggo snuggles, talking about ALL the relationships, tantra events, BDSM-events and more 💝

I have a somewhat easy time understanding that I have partners and lovers. But that I have such a cool, kind, supportive and quite big circle of friends blows my mind and fills my heart 💖
#PolyamorousEveryDay
#PolyamorousFriends
#Friendships

Gosh, I completely missed thinking about that it was metamour day yesterday 😝
Was busy with "partners" and community instead.

It started with a little talk with Slow Lori while started her long drive to one of my metamours. ❤️
Then I attended a lovely yoga class led by one of my lovers and got to lunch and chat about our dates next week with him 💖
After some chill time at an art exhibition I talked to Slow Lori some more (she was almost done with the long drive) and my mother 💚
Then I hung out at a birthday party for a polyfriend (so we where a majority of polypeeps at the party). The friend lives in the same collective as Purple Tiger that used to be my partner and we got some time to catch up on all the changes in life since we parted. And it was beautiful 💜
Then home to sleep and now I am on the train to another polyfriend having a birthday party 🙃
#MetamourDay
#polyamorouslife
#PolyamorousEveryDay

One thing that happened during the days I did not post here was that me and Lion officially ended our relationship. 💔 It reached 7 years.

We "broke up" basically a year after he asked me to move out last year. Last year was a surprise but this year we took a common decision. Personally I decided that was likely the way to go during Christmas. But despite being prepared for the decision I have been having so many weird feelings throughout January 😵‍💫 There has been an emptyness that I was not expecting; feeling more alone on solo days and nights, grief about what we have had, feeling less supported/more unstable, jealousy of people having easier access to their long distance relationships, instincts to go looking for a new relationship and so on...

Today I already had a troubled state of feelings/mind when me and Lion took the same bus from the dogs daycare (my week dropping dog of, he takes the bus there every day). We had a polite and practical talk for the trip. But my feelings got even more complicated, hearing about the long distance partner he has visiting and just generally being together. ❤️‍🩹
This is a tough and complicated transition to being "just" friends and doggoparents together...

#PolyamorousEveryDay
#BreakUp
#RelationshipTransition
#ItsComplicated

It was lovely having my lover visit 😊
I met him at the train station and after a bit of confusion and strolling through town we chose a restaurant. Got the coziest table in the house, good service and great food and drinks 😋
It is rare for me to go on a "traditional" eat out date worth dressing up for, but it was really nice 💖
Then we went back to my place. 😴
This morning he went to the airport ✈️
It was nice giving him some hugs, kisses and support as he is going to care for a sick family member for some time.

This evening I have been talking to Slow Lori as she was driving home from one of her other partners ❤️
#PolyamorousEveryDay
#LongDistanceRelationship
#Polyamory
#Lovers