And it's FINE. It's fine. There's definitely some equipment/tools/machinery loss in one of the barns, some damage like to the dog kennel and I think we lost some solar panels… but the animals are all(?) ok (haven't officially counted foul yet, and one cat unaccounted for but she disappears for days at a time anyway) and IT'S FINE IT'S FINE but - there is huge stress and anxiety in my body from just getting through it and seeing the water surrounding us and being up to my knees in water going out to bring my dog into the house - and IT'S FINE but I would really like to just have a good cry and flush it all out of my system but I literally fucking CAN'T because WE'RE FINE so it DOESN’T REALLY MATTER and I don't DESERVE to cry.