Damn I didn’t intend to word vomit all that but maybe it makes someone else feel less alone or someone understand a bit more… maybe my word vomit will help someone somewhere… or be useful in some way

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and I get so sick of the awkward silences and hearing that I’m strong or resilient or an inspiration - I don’t want to inspire people with this. I just want me to be the me I used to be or at least for this shit to get easier

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And it’s now part of my medical history. I never had any issues with doctors but now I have to explain the attack, the physical damage and hospitalizations. I dread having to go to a doctor or hospital now because of that.

To say nothing of what it means to my mental health history.

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I hate talking about this. I hate thinking about it. I hate that I’ve had to do so much work trying to deal with it. It’s exhausting. Nobody ever seems to talk about how utterly exhausting #ptsd is. It’s so much more than what most people picture.

Sharing mostly because #mentalhealthawarenessmonth

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I also realize this is VERY queer and neurodiverse coded of me.

And yes, this tendency to only care for men who can't touch me has gotten stronger as my trauma has deepened.

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