when I was a kid I remember there was this "Etiquette for Ladies" TV show that would come on after The Price is Right when I was at my nanny's (my mom's stepmom) house
my weird little autistic trans girl brain treated that like gospel
I tried so hard to be a perfect little lady
and I couldn't figure out why it didn't make my mom happy
she's always very lady-like, I thought she'd like it
so I assumed I was just doing it wrong, or not good enough
I tried even harder, and eventually that "be lady-like" became one of the self-critical voices in my head
I still feel gross when I do something "unladylike" and it's weird
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