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Healing isn’t only about moving forward—it’s also about pausing to see how far you’ve already come. ✨ In the Season Two opener of In the Nude, I share how reflecting back fuels growth, and how embodying your future self now helps you create the life you long for.

#HealingJourney #CPTSDRecovery #InnerHealing #SelfGrowth #PersonalTransformation

Your “old self” isn’t your enemy. It’s the part of you that learned how to survive when life wasn’t safe. ✨ In this week’s episode of In the Nude, I share vulnerable stories of my own journey and what it really takes to move forward with CPTSD healing—compassion, not perfection.

#CPTSDRecovery #HealingJourney #InnerHealing #SelfGrowth #TraumaHealing #LettingGoOfPerfection

The fear of being mocked nearly stole my voice. But I’ve found it again, and I’m not letting go this time.

My first Medium article in seven months: https://shadowflux.medium.com/i-lost-my-way-a-little-8056eb1983a9

#KeepGoing #CPTSDRecovery #SelfDiscovery #EntrepreneurLife #FemaleFounders #Resilience #Storytelling

I’m don’t know how many people realize that New York City is watched over by a number powerful local spirits who while they can be stern, gnarly, and forbidding in appearance, are at heart almost unutterably benevolent and magnanimous.

As I get ready to start heading back to the suburbs of Chicago this afternoon and leave the college kid here for another semester, I’d like to take this moment to sincerely thank the island of Manhattan once again for her gracious healing energies

#nyc #cptsdRecovery

That feeling of being stuck—tight, trapped, like you’re hitting your head against the same wall—it’s not because you’re failing. It’s because you’ve been chasing worth and love outside yourself. When you stop grasping for approval and start coming home to you, everything shifts. ❤️

🎧 Hear why this happens, where it comes from, and how to break free in my latest episode.
#HealingJourney #TraumaRecovery #SelfWorth #InnerHealing #EmotionalHealing #CPTSDRecovery #SelfLove #Worthy

A couple of years ago, I had no option but to go back to the house I was abused in as a child. That triggered something in me, and inspired me to start planning a story about a kitten living through abuse and homelessness.
This year, I finally released a digital copy of the storybook onto my Patreon and Ko-Fi.

“Lost Kitten Finds a Way”
https://ko-fi.com/s/a100cf0ae0

I spent weeks illustrating the story and handwriting each page. My cousin designed the cover for me, because I wanted another style and another artist’s take on the story. Then, my partner @magicalgrrrl helped me put all the pages together into a (pdf) ebook.

I am still trying to find the happy ending that the kitten found. We are attempting to recover from homelessness, and continue to run into obstacles. In the eyes of the law, we are still homeless, so we are trying to create stability for ourselves. I hope to get enough ebook sales to one day be in a position to order hard copies to give to folks who purchased the ebook, and continue to sell my book after that.

This was a good first big step in processing my trauma, and I plan to continue that journey by finding a good therapist, catching up on medical care after a life of being medically neglected, writing an autobiography about my experiences, and by writing more music about it (my debut album has been in planning for a few years now).

If folks decide to purchase my book, I am grateful for that. If you decide to boost this, I am also very grateful for that. (I also take art commissions, and) Any support towards my family’s survival right now is massively appreciated. Thank you for reading 🫶

#kofi #artist #illustrator #CPTSDSurvivor #trauma #ActuallyAutistic @actuallyautistic #ptsdSurvivor #CptsdRecovery #PTSDRecovery #DisabledArtist #neurodivergent #lgbtqia #CommissionsOpen #Storybook #SelfPublished

It’s the start of winter, and for the first time in a long while, I’m really feeling the cold. I’ve been wearing a cardigan inside, which is unusual for me. There’s something almost grounding about it, though. Maybe it means I’m finally beginning to feel my body more clearly. That in itself feels like quiet progress.

Church today went OK. Rehearsals are still somewhat difficult. I haven’t quite settled back into that rhythm. Once the service begins, though, something shifts. Things tend to flow better, and I can let my voice come through without holding back. My top notes aren’t fully back to where they were before the bout of tonsillitis a few weeks ago, but they’re getting there slowly.

Someone is visiting later, and I’m impatient for the time to pass. Waiting has never been my strength, especially when the day feels stretched thin.

Next week looks more or less the same. I have exercise scheduled for Monday and Thursday, and support appointments on Tuesday and Saturday. Study threads through the gaps. Two online classes this trimester, focused on models of counselling and ethics in the counselling profession.

If I’m honest, the routine is getting a bit monotonous, especially the exercise side of things. Still, repetition isn’t always a bad thing. Sometimes it’s what keeps everything else from unravelling.

#CPTSDRecovery #WinterReflections #NeurodivergentLife #SingingThroughIt #MasterOfCounselling #OnlineStudy #ChurchAndHealing #TonsillitisRecovery #StructuredLiving #ProcessingTheOrdinary