Haiii y'all :3 it's been a heck of a time in wonderland! My job has been working me pretty hard and I'm thankful for it, I've been getting to learn a lot about how Wally world processes their clothing items as I work in their fashion department (hint it's dysfunction as all get out lmao). Though I'm allowed to have earbuds at work! An absolute blessing to be honest! With that privilege I've been able to get some work done with listening to some books, some of which are ;

Horns for Hell by Rafael Nicolas
Polysecure by Jessica Fern
Polywise by Jessica Fern and David Cooley
The sunlit man by Brandon Sanderson

H4H and the sunlit man are books id recommend to just about anyone however each have their how required reading prior (the angels trilogy for H4H and the storm light archive for The sunlit man) as they are both absolutely fantasticly written!

Polywise and polysecure however are books on navigating polyamory and as much as id like to say I know what I'm doing as someone who has been poly for the last 5 years or so now. These books made me realize just how much more I have to learn and grow in my poly journey. So if you are poly and haven't read them just yet, id recommend giving them a try, they are written by Jessica Fern a polyamorous psychotherapist with many *many* insights on the myriad ways the way we think and understand relationships.

Also enjoy the image! I took it today while feeling quite confident and wanted to share it~

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From #AngelsAndMan by #RafaelNicolas

Angels can heal using water, but there are some interesting caveats. Here, a lesser angel of healing is faced with a "pre-prepubescent child with tired eyes and a deformed arm, much smaller than the other, leading to a hand seemingly melded shut and twisted awkwardly at the wrist."

And is unable to heal him...

> “He’s not hurt. I can only heal what’s broken.” “But he can only use one arm.”
> “That’s not brokenness.”
> The sister scoffed, except it was sad, frustrated, rather than mean. “He can’t do what the rest of us can.”
> “That doesn’t make him broken.”
> “I want him to live as easy as us.”
> “I’m sorry,”

Now, I found this quite interesting because it's a perspective on disability that I don't see portrayed in this sort of way very often.

Later, this angel tries thinking through what might happen if he tried to heal someone who's pregnant. The whole idea of pregnancy is new to the angels at this point, and it was interesting how he considered "Well, it can kill them, much like a disease or injury. But is that brokenness?"

I'd love to hear y'all's thoughts on the matter if you are willing to share given the small amount of context here.

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During this scene where Apsinthos is talking Dina into sinning for the greater good, basically one pause later and then this:

> ‘Have you ever pleasured yourself with your hands, Dina?’ The angel gripped at the bedsheets as his muscles tensed, and his cheeks warmed.

Now Dina is such an innocent naive angel. He really just wants to be told he's doing a good job and get headpats with praise. Slides into subspace super easily. Apsinthos continues:

> ‘It wasn’t a sin once to do it. In the time before Satan, there was no sin, just acts of pleasure and acts of pain. When time has ended, there will be no such word for sin anymore. You may be able to feel pleasure again how that man made you feel. Do you want to?’

I'll skip Dinas reaction because it requires expanding on more context that will only give y'all more questions 🤭

But after the reaction...

> ‘But you do want it. You want to do what you shouldn’t. Bring your hand between your legs.’ Dina was relieved it was a command, that he didn’t have to live with the guilt of doing it on his own accord.

Anyway, I know some of you probably thought "Oh, is this sinning going to involve mass murder and destruction?!" And the answer to that is also technically yes, but that's for later.  

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From #AngelsAfterMan by #RafaelNicolas

> Anyone can be forgiven, according to him, according to God. For centuries, Satan had heard this sentiment and asked: why should anyone want God’s forgiveness? What made His forgiveness so special? The Lord is but a narcissist — because what good does it do to apologize to a distant God instead of those you’ve harmed? Why move to absolve yourself instead of making amends? This is pure narcissism, too, on the part of the sinner. The devil would know; he is the mother of vanity.

I just really liked the quote. And it's spoiler free!

With the amount of bondage in this book, I hope there's a trove of fanart in progress...

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> ‘To fulfill the prophecy of Revelation, you will have to sin. You may have to lie, to covet. How the angels have had to kill humans for God, you will have to commit some sin for the greater good.’

The Greater Good!

The cloaked council in Hot Fuzz likes to chime in whenever this phrase crosses my stream of perception.

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> ...Tell me one day that you will stop loving me. Oh I would do anything to make God stop loving me.

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> ‘Is it the devil that makes us evil or is it circumstance?’

From #AngelsAfterMan by #RafaelNicolas

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Book 1 is #AngelsBeforeMan

It covers the story of the Fall of Lucifer. It's technically not canon, but it's treated by many as if it is. Funnily enough there's a quote in book 3 that's relevant to discussing the common experience with many religious folks.

> had always found their faith more in whims and what their own parents had taught them, rather than anything in the scripture itself.

Anyway, it's a good read. Starts from when Lucifer is created. How he develops, observing the ambient culture. I definitely know some folks that can relate to certain vibes.

> He climbed back to the second floor, then went to his room and flopped over the bed. For a moment, he stared at the ceiling as he had done before, then rolled over so that he could snuggle into the obscene amount of things there. Rubbing his face against a plush pillow, tugging quilts and blankets over himself, he thought of everything.

God even tells him how he "planted a garden" inside Lucifer. It's both beautiful and very much ominous.

Then the little quirks start appearing like the emphasis on staying clean, what it means to be civilized, how one needs to have a dedicated purpose, etc.

> “There is nothing more important than remaining clean. An angel that becomes impure becomes unworthy to live in paradise.”

Luci is quickly a favorite. Everyone loves him. Angels are genderless, but He/Him are the only pronouns that exist for now. Angel of Beauty, Angel of Worship. This angel is terribly self-conscious and full of guilt and shame over attributes beyond his control, like being so distracting to everyone.

> Sometimes Lucifer wished being the angel of beauty wasn’t so distracting for everyone.

Another popular angel is Michael, ArchAngel of Strength, Chief Prince. Two wildly popular and attractive angels getting caught up in each other's gravity fields. Almost as if they were made for each other.

> Briefly , the younger angel remembered a moment on Earth: them arguing playfully, Michael grabbing him, hoisting him over one shoulder, and Lucifer kicking helplessly, screaming in embarrassment. The prince had brought him back to the grotto, settled Lucifer over the blanket, and chuckled that the angel of worship weighed nothing to him. Lucifer — laying there with all the fever of meekness, feeling like he’d just been kidnapped, feeling like he was about to be devoured, feeling happy, despite it all.

Yes, it's so very gay. Even through I was already familiar with how this story will end, I still let it make my queer little heart happy.

There's an interlude after which things start getting... wilder, we'll say.

The interlude has so much creative imagery. It's a dream. I want to highlight a couple of pieces

> Whispering — “I daydream of you, of loving you.”
> “How do you love me?”
> “Like this.” Yearning mouth — it’d press soft to the smooth of his tunic. “Like a flower, like a symphony, trapped in my throat, like you’re an eternity, and I need you in my veins.”

This dream ends with both angels running away as God approaches

> Gathering their clothes, taking each other’s hands, and laughing, they’d run away from Him, as fast they could. So that He doesn’t see, doesn’t notice. Two angels creating love, creating.

This is important because it symbolizes exactly how their dynamic is at this time.

I'm skipping most of the other themes and just about all of part 2 of this book. At least for this post. Would need several more content warnings that makes it more suitable for a different one.

Anyway, by the end of book 1, Michael is ripping off Lucifers wings like it's Luci's heart ripping away from his own. And he casts him down out of Eden towards Earth.

Book 2 is #AngelsAndMan

Lucifer is much less the innocent angel from Book 1 and is calling himself Satan. Discussing the full arc across the books is basically an essay I do not have the time to write. The books are right there y'all, and I'm not even close to being as good of a writer.

There's a snippet in the interlude of Book 2, that so very closely echoes Book 1. Complete with all the flowery imagery, but also

> I love you, he was saying, no one will ever hurt me like you have.

and then very shortly after...

> In a shaking desperation, he swore to the dazed, unfinished angel: “I dreamed of you, of loving you.”
> “How did you love me?”
> “Not like this.”

To quote @xYourEmoGFx this was "Devastingly beautiful"

Like the dream in the interlude of Book 1, it ends with God approaching. This time, only Luci runs, with Michael encouraging him, telling him to run for safety but staying put himself.

I won't go into details beyond that, but I will say that Michael is a simp. Like, wow. The evolution of Moocifer (Michael+Lucifer) through the books really steals the show imo. The drama and angst is popcorn worthy, and if it's the chapter I just read in book 3, you can probably use my skin to pop the popcorn, because it got pretty toasty.

Happy reading! The books also get pretty dark in places, so definitely consult some content warnings beforehand.

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> I love you, he was saying, no one will ever hurt me like you have.

Leaving this totally out of context to avoid spoilers for #AngelsAndMan by #RafaelNicolas

If there's interest, I can do a couple of posts that collect specific things with some context to point out particular themes?

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Just a quote from #AngelsBeforeMan by #RafaelNicolas

> ‘I wish I could get even closer to you — I wish we could sink into each other and become one.’ Lucifer clutched Michael’s clothing. ‘What is inside of you, archangel? Did Father plant flowers within this body too? I want to peel you open and suck the nectar from them.’

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