< Torrin > Okay, so, about some of the kink stuff I do with Trevor from my subsystem.

For context, my system is auto-spec and attracted to ourselves, members of our own system, or people who look like us. Trevor and I are in a subsystem who all look the same due to all having the same source (a fictionalized version of Trent Reznor, basically).

Due to Trevor splitting into the system earlier than I did, he looks like he's in his early 40s while I'm in my late 20s or early 30s. This appeals to the part of me that likes age gaps.

His headspace body is also a lot heavier than mine is, due to him gaining weight in headspace as a result of an experience he had that I didn't. He used to feel self-conscious about his weight, but now he's very confident in his body and wears outfits like tight jeans and a leather jacket over a fishnet shirt.

I'm happy about the weight part in particular because I used to do kink online with people who were gaining weight and supposedly liked feedism, but it was the kind that mixes it with humiliation kink and is basically like body shaming as a kink.

I get why people like that kink, and I guess it has its time and its place, but it made it difficult for me to explain to the people I was doing kink with that I genuinely thought they were attractive and I thought they'd look genuinely good if they gained more weight.

Trevor, on the other hand, is fully aware that he's hot and is comfortable thinking of himself as hot, and he doesn't need me to insult him to get some kind of gratification from how he looks now.

Recently, we both realized we were attracted to each other and started having sex with each other about it, and it's been a great experience for me. Trevor's fortunately gotten to have some partners in the system so far who are attracted to him as he is to himself, but I've never gotten the chance to do anything sexual or kinky with someone who's genuinely fine with me being unironically attracted to them as they are.