Dr. Culber's trauma healing storyline on Star Trek Discovery hit me right between the eyes, even moreso now than when I first saw it.

I've described the Lindsay neurodivergent experience as "running uphill, gasping for air, with no breaks, hungry, never getting a chance to rest or eat." As a result, my mind collapsed right as COVID was starting to get bad, followed by a couple years of constant anxiety looking for stability and sanity.

Then I got a miracle, and now I'm able to focus on my content and my recovery, thanks to the generosity of a friend who appreciated my work, and had the means to do so.

This has come with a profound sense of "survivor's guilt." Most neurodivergent people suffering from trauma and burnout never get a chance like this. Why me? Do I deserve it? Should I give more, share more, do more, so I feel worthy of this unimaginable good luck?

But we can't pour out of an empty cup. I am lucky as hell I have this opportunity to replenish myself, but that's exactly why I should USE it to replenish myself.

Once I have the strength, that's when I can actually pay it forward, and help others in a way I'm simply incapable of doing at the moment. And according to a lot of comments I receive, I've made some positive impact already.

It was awesome to get to meet Wilson Cruz at Rose City Comic-Con last year and geek out with him about Dr. Culber's moving, compelling story arc in person!

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@nerdycrab

First - just FYI Mastodon has a "CW" (Content Warning) feature that makes it easier to hide spoilers.

Second - Eww, but you do you 😂🤣