𓊆ྀི𝜗ৎ he/they ☆ i like sigma from bsd ☆ artist ☆ TEEN 𝜗ৎ𓊇ྀི
tone tags are greatly appreciated!!!
currently trying to recover from my ed, so i’m not very active here :)
**posts will be marked with tws accordingly ! most common tws will be sh/ed/sui**
| 𓊆ྀི𝜗ৎ tumblr 𝜗ৎ𓊇ྀི | https://www.tumblr.com/ch4rliii |
| 𓊆ྀི𝜗ৎ random likes 𝜗ৎ𓊇ྀི | dinosaurs, bungo stray dogs, sonic franchise (i like shadow :3!), vocaloid, rhythm + vn games, horror |
| 𓊆ྀི𝜗ৎ conditions 𝜗ৎ𓊇ྀི | diagnosed: severe social anxiety, severe anxiety, depression |
| 𓊆ྀི𝜗ৎ other interests (studies/hobbies?) 𝜗ৎ𓊇ྀི | theoretical physics, writing, art |
“announcement” thing
i am aware i have stated and have in my bio that i’m anti-recovery (for myself), however, i am going to try to recover from my ed at least somewhat.
i’m going to be taking it very slow through my recovery as i am very mentally “fragile” and wouldn’t be able to handle it otherwise. i will still be active here, and i’d appreciate any support that people are willing to give me. thank you, love you all <3
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anyways goodnight everyone, have nice dreams if you have them! ♡
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i don’t even take my vitamins anymore because of the calories they add. i can barely get up in the morning because i don’t have the energy. i’m constantly nauseous. i have to deny food whenever i get offered anything at all. i’m so afraid of gaining weight i sometimes even cry at even the thought of eating more than 100kcal.
but it’s all worth it cuz i’m skinny, right?
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i wish i could just eat normally still. the most i can get myself to eat is 100kcal and that’s pushing it.
today i had ~91kcal dinner which is already 10kcal more than i usually eat. my total was ~104kcal.
idk how it got this bad. i want to eat what i like. i feel like shit all the time. i literally had a dream where i ate 200kcal or smth and i was crying IN THE DREAM and desperately trying to vomit the food out.
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RE: https://mastodon.social/@thevoidosphere/116315023724855702
hellooooo!!!!! o(^▽^)o #welcomejirai
meal today was greek yoghurt + powdered peanut butter mm yum
only 90 cals (depending on your yoghurt obvs)
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i went to the bookstore today to find yaoi and guess what i DON’T find. YAOI. NOT A SINGLE BOOK. usually there is some yaoi. smh
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my parents keep telling me to eat more and asking me why i “don’t like eating/food anymore” and every time they say shit like that it makes me want to rip my skin off
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my genuine, on god, real life reaction when someone i look up to follows me
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realizing i might ACTUALLY have a serious ed
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