By the way, I know a lot of folks struggle with mental heatlh in various ways, so:

Know that the fact that people interact with you at all, and are part of your life even in very loose ways, means your presence matters and you're irreplaceable.

It won't always feel like it, but people do appreciate you. Most just don't know how to express it very well, and no one really does a good job of teaching that. I'm no better than anyone on this point.

But really, whatever community you have is irrefutable evidence that you're not alone. They're the ones that will appreciate you.

There's no incentive structure to Fedi. Nobody follows you just to increase some metric or trick you into following back to win some game tied to capitalism here. They follow you because you're interesting or cool. Or both.

This probably doesn't help with the myriad other, more material causes for your suffering. Money be damned.

But you'll never be alone if you don't want to be. And it can get better.