There was a good decade where I barely brushed my teeth. And I was severely judgmental to myself about that.

But it wasn't because "I'm a crap person who can't do adult things." 1/2

#ActuallyAutistic #Autistic #AuDHD #Sensory #Interoception

It was because "I have a lot of oral sensitivities, and the toothbrush actually triggers my gag reflex. Of course I don't want that. That's my body's way of saying there's something toxic in my mouth and trying to expel it."

That's not a character flaw. That's my nervous system doing its job.

@hmm_cook
I had a similar thing, for me it was also the toothpaste, something about the sensation of it just... *shudder* I've been brushing without toothpaste for a few years now a lot more patient with myself on the days I can't.

@hmm_cook I felt no point in causing my guns to swell painfully for over an hour it hurt... and I got in trouble sometimes for being grumpy... the task and following pain stole some spoons.

when I left the nest, I stopped brusing, because the reward/punishment dealt to me by my parents no longer existed.

My adult found out from dentist is my mom didnt massage my teeth when my baby self was teething. I have some toxic things on my gums, and one week of warm cloth massage cured it.