When I add something to my to do list now, I try to be more strategic by 1) only adding things that are actually pressing, not 'wishful thinking' items; and 2) adding a little note about why it's bothering me in that moment.
Both of these things help me create a list I can actually (at the right time) find the #motivation to want to work on.
Still struggling a LOT with #monotropism in terms of tasks/obligations.
It's very very very difficult to do anything else if something on my future to do list is very daunting for me.
It may take days or weeks (or months) to finally tackle said daunting task and meanwhile I'm wildly unlikely to be able to get much done apart from small, well spaced out chores.
It's somewhat helpful to reframe by rescheduling the task to some later date and then assuring myself it's ok to breathe between now and then—that can open up some space *sometimes*....
But even so. Daunting tasks aside, I have such a hard time with reorganizing what I need to do if I've already 'set' a task and then that task is being avoided or gets delayed... If I don't set a task then I just feel bombarded by a slew of obligations and I freeze up.
Trying to work my mind around this feels very much like trying to push my body through a solid wall. And yet the idea of setting the task down for awhile or reorganizing priorities *sounds* so simple. I'm then left with my face pressed up against that wall wondering why the fuck I can't just take a step back.
J.