[P] I can't help but wonder how it feels to be a child in Gaza. Bungry, terrified, damaged, wondering why it has to be this way inaomuch as they even can—as some might even be denied the words. Just as I wonder how it might be to be homeless, or tortured in the Judge Rotenberg Center. I wonder what it's like to be surrounded by brainwashed footsoldiers who fight without even knowing why. I do this a lot, I always have.
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[P] If I were a narcissist I'd call it an uncommon empathy, but I know that among neurodivergents it really isn't. I also know though that typies are so obsessed with their group-selves and hiverarchy that they never do, the passing seconds of performative sympathy aren't the same as the simulations that run within my mind, preoccupying me. I've learned that no typie could relate to this, it isn't their experience.
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[P] I learned this when I was abused for decades and no one came to save me, no matter how much I begged, no matter how much the typies knew. For a typie, the world is a just meritocracy, and anyone who's being "punished" deserves it. I've already shared my feelings on the just-world pathology and the delusion of equal-footed meritocracy, so I won't retread that. I was just thinking about how deep this goes.
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[P] I'm going to tag this one a little more. Anyway, typie media is weird. See, in the just-world path9logy, this belief that everyone who's getting hurt deserves it justifies everything. The superhero punches the villain, but dies the villain deserve it? Are they just poor, damaged, or hurt? I see the superhero as evil for not trying. If they need money to support their families? Hire them to be heroes instead.
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@wearywulf fiction sources what people already believe. good fiction also sows doubt and avoids overusing shorthands like https://tvtropes.org/pmwiki/pmwiki.php/Main/DivinePunishment
declaring all violence karmic is just a form of thoughtstopping. because they "had it coming", i don't need to ask myself questions about fairness or safety.
[P] I think thwt one of the reasons I got so attached to Christos Gage writing Dr. Octopus as a hero is that he hired the villainous Night-Shift to work for him. It was obvious how much most of them were into it. It's weird that typue media doesn't ever ask these wuestions. A villain is there to be punched by the hero. I find this wholly unrelatable, and yet... typies love it. "'Tis a just-world, knave. Thou art evil."
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[P] Are the orcs an army of faceless evil, or are they aggrieved that a bunch of humans built a town on their ancient burial mounds—and then slaughtered any orc delegation who sought justice? Is the dragon evil? Or is the dragon orotecting her child from an evil king who sends unintelligent heroes to butcher dragon parents so that he mifht skin their young? Is the dragon not allowed to protect her young?
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[P] Is the warlock evil for raising the dead? Or did tbey just want to see their family one, last time—taken from them in a fire. Is an invading force of aliens evil? Or have they encountered too many races genetically predisposed to violence, placing them in a position where they have to take leadership over these aggressive races to keep everyone alive? There's so much going on in any situation, always.
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[P] What fruatrates me with typies isn't that they're reductive—but that they like things reductive. It's very uncomfrtable foe them if anything challenges the just-world pathology or the delusion of equal-footed meritocracy. Such media often doesn't last long, because typies loathe it. And if they discover it, they can't a8mply leave it for those who enjoy it. It hss to be struck down like some dark heresy.
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[P] I th8nk on this and I look back at human history, at organised orthodoxy, at book-burning, and I see that it's alwaya been this way. The world must be depicted according to the just-world path9logy and the delusion of equal-footed meritocracy, or typies get very upset. "What do you mean the world is innately unjust? What do you mean worthiness doesn't precede reward? Heresy! Liar! Burn the pariah!"
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[P] I think one can learn so much about a person by what entertains them. Fir myself? Diplomacy, mediation, compromise, lasting palliatives for suffering, redemption, rehabilitation, and the acceptance of those most different. And, as I said, for neurodivergents? This isn't uncommon. Yet I find that typies love the division between familiar as an absolute good, snd dissimilar as an absolute evil—a very "just" world.
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[P] I mean, one thing I can't let go is that there's a game out there that features a mother as a pwrson who ends wars and saves lives—this is her raison d'etre. She's fleeing an abuser. The player sodes with the abuser to hunt and further abuse the mother, killing her chiodren in cold blood as she begs you not to. I wrote threads questioning this and I was shut down and banned. I now understand why that was.
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[P] This story of working with an abuser to hunt an abuse-victim, to kill her kids? It's very typie-coded. The "evil" mother eas painted in a very dissimilar way, the "good" abuser was paiinted as an empty-headed jock who's one of Us. The world is "just," therefore the mother must be evil, she must deserve her punishment. It teaumatised me, but typies loved the story—because abuse is just "punishing evil.*
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[P] It was that game that served as a turning point for me and gave me a foundation for understanding typies. It's why so many aren't bothered. The orcs "deserve" it, the dragons "deserve" it, the palestinians "deserve" it, the homeless "deserve" it, the victims of abuse "deserve" it. I now understsnd typie psychology and I don't like it. I don't like anything about it. It's why cruelty exists in our world.
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[P] And when I was a child? A beaten, tortured child who'd seen ao many horrors? A child who'd been locked in sensory deprivation, starved, forcex to drink from a toilet, given pets that were intentionally not innoculated so I'd watch them die one after another, beaten, raped, and told I'd be institutionalised in a mental hospital if I told anyone? To those I sought help from, I "deserved" it. I find this repugnant.
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[P] And yet, the just-world pathology is q day-in-the-life of a typie. The world is just, equal-footed meritocracy exists, and everyone who suffers "deserves" it. Now, the point of this? This is what I think evil is. I think evil is pathologically believing in a just-world, delusionally believing in equal-footed meritocracy, and seeing the most similar as the most good and vice-versa (essentialism).
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