In late 2023 I was ignorant, brainwashed and immensely unaware as I navigated trying to reduce harm on this planet through whatever means possible because that's been my "calling," what fuels my existence, what hits my heart deepest under all circumstances.
I am a healer, in all ways, shapes and forms of "identity" strip away my skin tone, my gender, my history and trauma and I am still a healer, a communicater and that's it.
Yep, another thread from #SabiLewSounds while she fights for housing
So when I still had the resource of housing and platform for my voice, music and creation I lent those resources long before my understanding of #MutualAid bloomed to an org and a group of #Twitch streamers ready to wank to their saviorism content with a #CharityEvent called #SaveAndRaid for so called #SuicideAwareness and #SuicidePrevention it brought me haphazardly to the beauty of the #Fediverse and its #AntiFacist wonder
By jesus himself, I'm namig names - I ask my ancestors to protect me
But as @saveandraid and their randomly chosen org SAVE (Suicide Awareness Voices of Education) went about with their circle jerk those resources of time, energy, housing and platform dried up
My chronic suicidality became worse and worse as I had no food, I was months away from an eviction because an abuser took away my income when I called them out
I told that community, that I thought was mine, that I was struggling - their reactions were pure cowardice as many yt saviors do
I did #DOSember with many from this community, thinking maybe, maybe I finally found a home, people who care especially about mental health because so many were giving time and labor and funds to that #charity event
Literally weeks away from the eviction in March 2024 this #charity about "awareness" and all these assholes who claimed to care about #suicide showed their asses
During the event when I tried to bring "awareness" to systemic issues that fuel suicidality to a specialist on their panel they went completely out of their way to silence me and at least one other person who was trying to center #marginalized people and the #oppression that keeps us in dire suffering that is so heavy it leads to #suicidality
The questions were #accountability to an org claiming to care, claiming action
We were snubbed out
"Awareness" is a fucking #Capitalistic scam bred to pull financial and other resources (time, energy, platforms) from the #marginalized and benfit from those suffering
That will NEVER be our path to liberation and the abolition of #facism
Pat beautifully writes about this on #substack - https://open.substack.com/pub/patradicaltherapist/p/suicide-awareness-month-is-a-scam
Do you all actually care to reduce harm?
I was weeks away from eviction and this group of people raised over 200% of what would have saved my family from this violent situation within two days, and then boasted about it
I was left for dead
My mother was left for dead
Our #bunny was left for dead
And these @saveandraid people dared to claim they want to prevent death with their #Twitch streams and #money
Laughable hypocrisy
Actions and inaction speak louder than words even the CEO of the himself gave the exact amount that would have saved us
I am now fighting extreme #suicidality as every single day I have little to no food, housing where I am in physical danger daily, moments away from being at the hands of ICE and racists posing or enboldended by #ICE and the ACABs in general as being #unhoused is illegal here
Do you really care about preventing death? Do you really?
Once we lose this hotel (which is now over two weeks past due) we are at the mercy of #ClimateChange #Hurricanes #ICE #ACABs and other #facists - no one bats an eye
This isn't new, this isn't because of #Trump this is because of hundreds of years of people folding to a lie of #scarcity and capitalistic fear mongering as we all scramble to hoard every last resource to the detriment of all the fauna and flora on this earth
Fuck #SuicideAwareness and all those "awareness" schemes
#DirectAid wins
SLS