@ahrimans_erbe @pathfinder @actuallyautistic lol. Maybe. My point is that we have to create an emulator to try to run NT programs.
They don't bother and the emulators depend on who created them, and when AND are still running when we try to communicate with one another.
I want pathfinder and other recently diagnosed/hatched auts to sit down with the concept that autistic history PREDATES many of you being born.
The past either connects to the present in a seamless flow
Or it doesn't.
@ahrimans_erbe @pathfinder @actuallyautistic
Understanding the past from an AUTISTIC rather than an ALLISTIC perspective is inherently part of being a community
You have a choice. Accept that history as YOURS. Or declare it as something that you reject.
Both are Not Possible.
if you post "we universally are like this" without specifying it means "people who just found out"
and saying it under the category #ActuallyAutistic
The implication is that you think these are the same
@ahrimans_erbe @pathfinder @actuallyautistic sitting down with "autism predates the current definition in the pathology book" means not centering the damn book as somehow inherently authoritative.
Im saying this as someone diagnosed ODD. A label that sent my disabled
Non gifted, non wasp peers
Into some kind of containment system,
Go watch the interviews and videos about JRC shock torture
Understand that those victims aren't appreciably different from people i was in sped with.
@CatHat @ahrimans_erbe @pathfinder @actuallyautistic
I was born in the 1970s. There was no autism spectrum.
To be autistic back then was a debilitating thing. The kind of thing that got you institutionalized.
Back then, if you were functional at all, you weren't called autistic. You were maybe "willfull" or "violent" or "dangerous". Maybe "stupid" or "not paying attention" or just "weird". But the treatment was all behavioral modification against your will. It was punishment.
I'm also transgender and using the DSM as a diagnostic tool kept me from figuring out it for at least an extra two or three years. It was bullshit. Trans people, similar to neurodiverse people, are better at diagnosing people based on shared, lived experiences than doctors the Doctors who've studied us.
@jrdepriest @CatHat @ahrimans_erbe @pathfinder @actuallyautistic
Look up a disgusting doctor that sent children to be murdered by Nazis named Hans Asperger.
Recognition of Autism presenting in various degrees existed long before the 70’s. It’s why many refuse to use the term ‘Aspergers syndrome’. Some of us older people still use the term. It was included in the umbrella term “Autism Spectrum Disorder” in 2013.
@BrokenArrow @jrdepriest @ahrimans_erbe @pathfinder @actuallyautistic
Asperger syndrome
Means.
Has the same neurotype as some of the victims of nazi medical experiments.
Those kids didn't do anything wrong.
Its disgusting to suggest that the history including those victims is something to erase!
@CatHat @jrdepriest @ahrimans_erbe @pathfinder @actuallyautistic
I was never called autistic.
It was always:
-the awkward kid
-the know-it-all/brown-nose
-could do a lot better if they just paid attention
-could play sports better if they participated instead of watching ants or making sounds with blades of grass
-troubled/spirited kid who would meltdown at the threat of a teacher calling home
-lazy/won’t apply themselves
@BrokenArrow
It's me you're talking about here, right? Because it sounds like you're talking about me!
@CatHat @jrdepriest @ahrimans_erbe @pathfinder @actuallyautistic
@ecosaurian @CatHat @jrdepriest @ahrimans_erbe @pathfinder @actuallyautistic
I feel ya. I knew there were others like me, they were who I made friends with. As a kid I used to imagine we were aliens.
@CatHat @ecosaurian @jrdepriest @ahrimans_erbe @pathfinder @actuallyautistic
Ooh i like that.
@CatHat @BrokenArrow @ecosaurian @jrdepriest @ahrimans_erbe @pathfinder @actuallyautistic Under the influence of Faeries, by Brian Froud (a big coffee table book we actually had on a coffee table), I daydreamed I was a changeling -- a faery swapped for a human child.
In retrospect, the description of changelings sounds somewhat like the description of an autistic child, particularly the way you could recognize a changeling by their peculiarities in speech. So maybe I was on to something.
@foolishowl @BrokenArrow @ecosaurian @jrdepriest @ahrimans_erbe @pathfinder @actuallyautistic i was not able to protect them :'(
Why the actual fuck did i set THAT one up? I mostly didn't even LIKE other People.
Normals vs People probably shows my opinion of NORMAL
@foolishowl @CatHat @BrokenArrow @ecosaurian @jrdepriest @[email protected] @pathfinder @actuallyautistic
High demand societies create a lack of autonomy on purpose.
I am sure I wasn't the only one faking it to fit in. Maybe I was one of the few who noticed.
@brainpilgrim @foolishowl @CatHat @ecosaurian @jrdepriest @ahrimans_erbe @pathfinder @actuallyautistic
I didn’t do fitting in. Following unwritten rules never worked or just backfired adding ridicule. They never wanted me to fit in, just to stop existing and breathing their air.
@brainpilgrim @foolishowl @CatHat @BrokenArrow @ecosaurian @jrdepriest @[email protected] @pathfinder @actuallyautistic
"Fake it until you make it" I did try for 4 years solid, to get a job, to do everything everyone told me I should be able to do as part of my dad's "That's life, deal with it" attitude...
I never made it. I mentally, figuratively, and life-altering 'crashed horrifically' in a way that I didnt know until a decade later is called "autistic burnout"
@GreenRoc @brainpilgrim @foolishowl @CatHat @ecosaurian @jrdepriest @ahrimans_erbe @pathfinder @actuallyautistic
It can take a while to recover
@BrokenArrow @brainpilgrim @foolishowl @CatHat @ecosaurian @jrdepriest @[email protected] @pathfinder @actuallyautistic
I have not fully recovered, and as long as most of humanity is a threat to me, I will not be able to recover fully.
I went from walking outside 3+ days a week, to hardly ever leaving my home except for vital shopping trips, after 'crash'.
I grow more content to stay indoors as time moves on, further encouraged to isolate with the life-threatening scenarios increasing outside.
@GreenRoc @BrokenArrow @brainpilgrim @foolishowl @CatHat @ecosaurian @ahrimans_erbe @pathfinder @actuallyautistic
I hope the pandemic has made it easier for you to connect where you need to without leaving the house.
I know telemedicine was great while it lasted, but more and more they are wanting us to come in.
@jrdepriest Oh YES much easier.
Order almost everything online.
I had asked for teletherapy-like doctor visits for decades. Kept get telling "no, we cant do that, not in our policies.. You have to come see us.
Decades.
Suddenly, shows up in 2020. Like, hellooooo... It's possible, been telling doctors for decades.
Average strangers stopped telling me I needed to get out more. That verbal argument with strangers and associates has no longer occurred.
@jrdepriest I do wish I didnt lose my therapist before telehealth arrived.
I havent had a single telehealth call, because of a lack of contacts and assists to make these calls.
I can relate. It wasn't until I burnt out for the 3rd (?) time I started to ask questions that led to realise I was autistic.
After years of pandemic isolation I'm fighting work demands to return to the office.
Why should I?
I proved I can do the job as well (better) from home, and going on-campus exhausts me and puts me at risk. I'd rather avoid people as much as possible.
@BrokenArrow @brainpilgrim @foolishowl @CatHat @jrdepriest @ahrimans_erbe @pathfinder @actuallyautistic
@jrdepriest @ecosaurian @GreenRoc @BrokenArrow @brainpilgrim @foolishowl @CatHat @pathfinder @actuallyautistic
Nobody is forcing the people who really want to go to the office to stay home.
Maybe the CIO is just lonely because he is the only one who feels that way 
@jrdepriest One size fits most, not all.
My head is too big for most hats.
Corporate needs to understand reality.
@jrdepriest @ecosaurian @GreenRoc @brainpilgrim @foolishowl @CatHat @ahrimans_erbe @pathfinder @actuallyautistic
“Office occupancy”. Not vacancy, but occupancy. They have offices with too much open space, the efficiency experts have a tougher time micromanaging the peons. It becomes an unacceptable overhead expense and the ceo’s don’t want to lose their posh office
Heh. My current RPG character believes he's a dragon who's been cursed into a lesser form that everyone ridicules.
They don't laugh at him as much now he breathes bolts of lightning!
@BrokenArrow @jrdepriest @ahrimans_erbe @pathfinder @actuallyautistic
@BrokenArrow @ecosaurian @CatHat @ahrimans_erbe @pathfinder @actuallyautistic
We tried to form our own religion.
@jrdepriest @CatHat @ecosaurian @ahrimans_erbe @pathfinder @actuallyautistic
Bigger kids meant either learn to mask better or suffer more severe violence for simply being different, and little or no support from school staff.
@xris @jrdepriest @CatHat @ecosaurian @ahrimans_erbe @pathfinder
“Self-control” on mine.
@xris
I mentioned school reports to someone recently. "is very clever but tends to daydream", "quiet and well behaved but slow to finish work". I also didn't do homework. One year I arrived late every morning with no excuse (no idea, I got off the train and followed the crowd into school).
Signs were there, but as I didn't meltdown in class nobody cared, and in 70s & 80s you learned not to seem different or you got beat up daily.
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