DaisyIt’s been a stressful evening at the #Stoddner house. Carl had a shitty day at work so he came home pissy then worked out and is now studying/doing homework. And bc my brain is #neurospicy his mood has triggered an #anxiety attack for me and I am spiraling into self loathing mode. Gotta love #CPTSD. Also I am starving and haven’t eaten since noon but my brain is saying “Don’t make food, that’ll be too noisy and Carl needs silence to study and focus.” So I’m just sitting here like
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Kevin Davy@Believer48
If in doubt cereal. It has always been my fallback when I couldn't bring myself to cook. Plus, whilst it's good that you are thinking about your partner. It's not you who should be feeling bad, especially about yourself.
If in doubt cereal. It has always been my fallback when I couldn't bring myself to cook. Plus, whilst it's good that you are thinking about your partner. It's not you who should be feeling bad, especially about yourself.
@Pathfinder I managed to make spaghetti-os as quietly as possible. He has calmed down significantly so I’m feeling slightly better. I know the self loathing spiral from others bad moods is a trauma response (both from childhood and lasted several abusive romantic relationships) even though Carl never takes his anger out on me nor is it ever directed at me.
@Believer48
Our damn memories are a beast. It never seems to take much to unleash them. Sympathy's. It would be nice if we could get past them, or at least learn to deal with them. But I suppose that might be a dream. I suppose all we can hope for is that eventually we might learn otherwise. ❤️
Our damn memories are a beast. It never seems to take much to unleash them. Sympathy's. It would be nice if we could get past them, or at least learn to deal with them. But I suppose that might be a dream. I suppose all we can hope for is that eventually we might learn otherwise. ❤️