systematic change 
We have… A complicated relationship with our gender.
We've considered ourselves transmasc or men-leaning people our entire lives. And in a way, that's true for some of our sysmates! They're men or men-leaning and there's nothing you can do about it.
But if that's the case, why did we start to feel like prisoners of this label? That being a man(-leaning) is not cool and worth being ashamed of?
That no one will love us as a man. That we will be considered dangerous. Not attractive. Not even being worth attention.
Here's another question: we've never paid much attention to the term transneutral. But that's strange, because we have so many sysmates who would describe themselves that way. Why didn't we pay attention to it before? Why only now? And why it feels more freeing then identifying collectively as a man(-leaning)?
We feel so lost. All we know about ourselves is that we (most of us) are not women. That much we are certain of. But no more.
#🌀 #systematic_entry #transmasc #transneutral #enby #plural #plurality
