Mastodawn

Lost

Lost in Love and Fear

It’s been so long that I am not sure how to love.

I only know I have love to give and I am dying trying.

I cry out for that warmth and connection.

I suffer in silence with my insecure thoughts.

I dread each night when it’s time to sleep.

The thoughts echo in my head and run wild.

I want to yell, “I love you.”

Yet I am terrified of the reply or the deafening silence.

Will I need to run and hide, or will my love be welcomed?

I have given my mind and soul.

To give all of me is dark and overwhelming.

Starting over is even scarier, and I fear the thought.

Will you welcome me with open arms?

Or will I need to start over again?

This burning love of my hurts often

Will you help me cure my pain?