Having a doubt that autistic burnout is my current issue, so I went looking for books on autistic depression. I ran across a book that I was 99% sure I have. I looked at my receipts, and yes I had a digital copy. Found it. I read it a year ago.

Must not have taken as...
1. I don't remember reading it. (There are highlights up to nearly the last chapter.)
2. I have decidedly gotten worse since a year ago.

#earlydementia ?

Reading through some of the early highlights, these are all things I've done for years. I heavily highlighted stuff on #interoception , which is a problem for me. But, I'm doing all the hacks around externally managing my lack of awareness.

I probably need to pay more attention to the #bodyscan stuff. That's tough because, well... it sounds like bullshit an NT wrote. I'm often assessing how I feel, but it's retrospective. How does one prevent getting to a 10 when you get a chance to stop and look, you are already at a 12? Maybe that's a place to do some online digging.

Kind of non-update update about #dementia thing,
I called doctor to clarify what he said.
Ended up with non-explanation explanation “It’s reversible, I’m not saying it’s non-reversible. You can still live healthy life “ What about stress he gave me?

There are lots of articles saying people with #ADHD can have #Earlydementia at their 50s, though I suspect they are trying to making money with those who have money and abandon without.
(I tend to be angry because of #PTSD)

@adhd

I went to Psychiatrist (ADHD doctor mostly prescribing meds)a few days ago, I told him my concerns about cognitive decline.(I’m 58)
I sometimes cannot simple addition ,or forget my late mother’s maiden name.
That doctor told me like he was trying to cure early dementia, “impossible to be cured for people who don’t live in certain schedules “. Even without testing me. I am writing this in my second language, my cognitive function is not 100% lost yet.
How can he say such a thing?
#ADHD
#Dementia
#Earlydementia

@adhd