Another crappy night's sleep. Also slept till 8am, as had put ear plugs in to avoid the screaming kids next door. Fitbit says 6 hours 58 minutes of sleep but score was 48 poor, awake for 4 hours 3 minutes.Went to sleep 9.20pm woke up after an hour, fell asleep til 2.45am & was awake til 5.15am.

#BadSleep

I woke up in a mood today. I don’t know what is bothering me. I feel a sense of doom and gloom. Am I suddenly psychic (Robert pauses the narrative to let anyone reading along finish laughing hysterically) and something is on the horizon?

Nope. Just in another bitchy mood. I didn’t get enough sleep last night and it shows. I have a small project at work that is hanging over me like a dark cloud. It’s not a big deal, I just don’t have the energy to deal with it. Crud, right?

The traffic was crappy this morning, but it was the normal level of crappy, not some extra thick level of crappy or anything. I don’t know.

Hey, did you watch the season finale of The Acolyte last night? It was good. I liked it. I liked the whole season though I will quickly admit that the action heavy episodes were by far the best of the bunch. No spoilers, but that scene last night where you actually see the light saber do that thing that light sabers are supposed to be able to do? You know, the thing that we never saw Anakin or Dooku or Maul or Palpatine actually do even though we all saw the end result? Hint Hint Sithy Hint? Awesome.

That should be putting me in a good mood, right? Star Wars is like my own personal dopamine fix. Nope. I was all smiles watching it last night, but today? Grumpy gus. Or should I call myself Darth Grumpy Gus? Does that work better?

No guitar playing today. Maybe before work tomorrow. I did use a guitar for today’s photo a day picture. I think the next time I play I am going to use a different guitar. I haven’t played my Gibson SG in ages and it’s kind of calling to me. My wife thinks that guitar looks cool so that alone should be incentive to play it more often, don’t you think?

Okay. Cheer up, everyone. It’s hump day or some shit. For my personal work week, once I get through the day in the office today, I am working from home for the rest of the week. That should cheer me up, right? Ugh.

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Ok, I've got a week to sort out my sleep. Currently, I'm mainly awake through the night and sleeping through the day.

Next Wednesday I need to be able to sleep through the night and be awake through the day as got an appointment the next day.

Knowing it's 11:45am at the moment and i'm still awake might be a good start just got to keep up a little longer

#badsleep #sleep #sleepissues

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I posted before about the whole job (or lack there of) thing and this week has been interesting on that front, granted not as interesting as my My Jobs Quest dashboard.

Before I roll into it, I think it is worth highlighting this toot, I didn’t have a haircut in my budget and it did hit hard, but you know what, it was worth it – I feel less oppressed by the physical weight of hair that was a reminder that I couldn’t have nice things. I think that also has an impact on the direction of this post.

I have a meeting with the coop in a couple hours, of course it’s raining so walking 90 minutes and arriving soaking wet isn’t an option, so exploitive pricing from RATP it is. At least I feel fresh, got my haircut yesterday because I needed it to happen not because I could afford for it to happen

But this week has been progress and unexpected – I applied to a job I spotted at a start-up, fairly small team and it looked interesting, so I went for it. I got contacted for an interview and that seemed to have gone OK, so I look to be getting somewhere in that process (hopefully). I also organised meeting with the coop to get onboarded, the information session was more detailed than the quick one I attended, and that is happening in two weeks.

This is unexpected, I’ve gone from going nowhere, or having one door barely open to having options on my table, equally, worst case is that the start-up job is a no go, but it won’t result in the desperate heart break like in October, because that’ll just solidify my choice to go forward as freelance.

The only not so great thing is that most of my other problems, mainly financial, seem to be easing up but I’m still impossibly far with the electric bill – we’ve got down to the registered letter threat of contract termination – so that is a thing I need to deal with soon.

Annoyingly as well, I found out the Impôts have been actually fucking me over pretty hard, I got my end of year statement from France (au) Travail (and die there) – ran the calculator on the results and these fucks have been, as I suspected, taking far too much from my monthly payments. Granted, I owe them 600€ still from 2022, but yeah, get fucked guys – this is something that won’t really move until the declarations open and then the payments / tax rate change kick in to effect in September.

So yeah just have to struggle on until then, but at least with things settling it isn’t going to be as awful as 2023. At least there is hope, and I can say with conviction that although things aren’t great at least they’re slowly getting better.

Oh but really obnoxiously my sleep is going really bad – which is unexpected

I still need to get the electric under control and would appreciate if you can help if you’re able to

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