Spent time under my favorite oak tree doing, what I call, introspective work. This is the mental work of acknowledging my feelings and letting them pass. I've spent my whole life running from feelings I didn't understand, trauma I didn't know I had. It's still a hard skill to master, but I'm getting better at not running from my own feelings. I've been overwhelmed by the state of the administration in this country. The anxiety stirs up feelings from my past where I've felt the same, pressure coming in from all sides, not safe, insecurity. I finally worked on those feelings today, letting them come to the surface so I can let them leave. My work is never done. Although none of this is my fault, it is my responsibility to work through it.
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