masukomiA silver lining of #SDAM is that you live with fewer regrets‡ because you've forgotten most of the things you'd be regretting.
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‡ I mean, probably. I can't be sure, because I don't know what I don't remember.
For context. I have Severely Deficient Memory Disorder ( #SDAM ). I literally don't remember most of my life. I don't remember flashing friends at a party. I don't remember the nail going through my nose. I don't remember important events or unimportant ones. What I do remember seems incredibly random.
I don't miss ANY of it, or notice when it goes missing.
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\ˈthē-ˈˈärd-ˌvärk\I can remember facts from my past, but I can't actually experience those memories again.
It's like having a bullet-point list of what happened, without the emotional and video replay.
This realisation feels important (to me), even if it took me a while to notice.
It continues my understanding of my neurodivergence that started with realising I had aphantasia, through a diagnosis for ADHD with a surprise autism side-dish to this point.
#SDAM #Aphantasia #Neurodiversity #AuDHD
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I did some reading about Aphantasia and associated neurodifferences. One of the documents had a clearer description of Severely Deficient Autobiographical Memory (SDAM) than I’d seen before.
I realise, several years after I first considered the possibility, that I probably have SDAM. I previously discounted the possibility because the name seemed dramatic. The phrase 'Severely Deficient' suggests a total lack of memory, and that's not what I have.
#SDAM #Aphantasia #Neurodiversity #AuDHD
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One of the weird things about #SDAM is that I don't remember MOST of my life, but sometimes the most random shit will pop up in my 🧠
I was taking a shower yesterday and some of Robert Maplethorpe's photos started flitting past my mind's eye.
I was a teen when there was big public debate (amongst artists?) about his work being "obscene"
All I know was that ALL of it was amazing, and some of it hit me like a sledge-hammer to my heart.
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kamikatWell, fuck. I just came across a comment on Reddit that makes me think. I've already witnessed some of these things. I don't know that I can be a witness.
"Because I have aphantashia and SDAM, I know these things won't haunt me the same way. Because of this, I feel I have an obligation to witness such things because somebody has to".
WorlddefensereportFrench DGA Orders Six VSR700 UAVs from Airbus Helicopters & Naval Group
#FrenchDGA #VSR700 #AirbusHelicopters #NavalGroup #FrenchNavy #UAS #ISR #NavalUAV #MilitaryDrones #MaritimeSurveillance #SDAM #DefenseNews #ParisAirShow2025
Zone Militaire [Unofficial]La Marine nationale va finalement équiper ses frégates multimissions avec des drones aériens Schiebel S-100
Because memory issues, I don't know if there was a fuck-up during the ordering process, or if I even own reading glasses in my current prescription.
The thing is, I can't figure out why I'd buy distance glasses that weren't sunglasses. Distances are fine with my progressive lenses.