I related how my trip to SLC, in the middle of my Texas adventures, had the effect of making me recognize how incredibly safe I feel existing as my authentic, genderfuq self in Utah.

I hope I gave him food for thought, when I talked about how free I feel by ignoring the news. How I, as a person with masculine features, wearing makeup and feminizing accessories, feel powerful when I defy gender norms in public. My freedom takes their power away.

#TransPower
#Genderfuq
#SLC #Utah

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I have built a hardcore habit of Morning Pages; writing in my journal before I leave bed in the morning. A couple if months ago, I added Tarot cards to my morning ritual. I pull 3 cards; one each for Body, Mind, and Spirit.

Today, I haven't written in my journal yet. I wrote the above, and another about #GenderFuq. I was wondering, as I shuffled my deck, whether I have any actual skill at applying Tarot cards in my life when I read on my own, with only a few chosen references to guide me. (I've not attempted to read others' cards, yet.)

I also had a flashback while shuffling. When Matthew, my spiritual guide with a therapy degree, asked me a question about my connection with the "wise one" inside of me, during a hypnotherapy session in December. At the time, I thought I had no connection to inner wisdom, and I was very confused by the question. As I continued to shuffle, I realized that I do have a solid connection to my inner wisdom now.

And then I pulled these 3 cards, which felt so very congruent.

Judgement, from a sense of Body - tells me that I always get to make a fresh start, that renewal can happen any time. That I can choose Now to transform myself, and evolve into who I choose to be. This, Now, is a time of renewal. That my post was part of setting my intentions for how the Adventure goes. (And a reminder to set my intentions for the upcoming new moon deliberately.)

Knight of Wands, for my Spirit card - oooooh, did this one feel Big! This is the first time I've pulled The World, I only had a small sense of the meaning before now. I understand The World to be a card of connection and wholeness, alignment with myself and all that there is around me. Today it tells me to look around, and observe that I already have all that I need. That there is fun to be had on the path to the things I want, but that it is imperative to pause and celebrate what I have accomplished. To love everything I already have, as I make space for new beginnings.

As I approach the New Moon this weekend, I am reminded of my awakening 6 months ago, which aligned with Winter Solstice. Awakening means a lot of things to me, but the best memory is of the first moment I realized something was different - that I'd made a choice to see the world differently - and that there really was something different to be seen now. I thought at the time that this seeing things differently was a result of refusing to engage with my nightmares about anything that hadn't happened yet, and a result of having finally healed myself of old wounds (past trauma).

It took time to understand that I was also seeing magic. 🪄🔮🦄

I also forgot how much fun people watching can be. I think my cerulean blue mask makes people in the SL,UT more comfortable with me. #CounterCulture

That contrasts with my Havasu experience, where I think my #genderfuq unicorn nature combined with a colorful mask was a bit shocking to the locals. They were a little nicer when I wore a boring mask color.

Still don't wanna stay here. Or there. Or anywhere in particular for too long. #nomad
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