maybe it's the "building of the revolutionary personality" thing that the Kurds talk about.

like last night going back from the protest I saw like, three very young Kurdish girls on the train, and they were sitting next to two Turkish guys. at some point one of the Kurds stated making a scene, in German: "What was that? Say that again to my face, come on, say it in German. You said you're sitting with terrorists in the train, (imitating) wallah. No I saw it, I speak your shitty language, come on, what are you afraid of? Look at me, I can't beat you up or anything, are you so scared of a little girl? Do you think this—" (touching the YPJ flag her friend was carrying "—is terrorism? Do you think your shitty president isn't terrorism and this is? Yeah I thought so, all you can do is to sit there with your stupid grin."

I thought of intervening but quickly I realised that would be condescending of me. Wide army pants, natural hair in a long braid, that certain fire in her eyes—I've met countless girls like that among the Kurds; they're perfectly fearless. she didn't need my help. I got down after the men just to be sure, but they didn't follow them.

and not for the first time I asked myself, what is it that the Kurds do that create people like this. how can I make my activism be more like theirs. and I think there's a lot to it but one thing is definitely the realness of it; the fact that most Kurds I know either have fought in the mountains, or have personal family or friends that fought, or who have been lost.

like some time ago was at a random place and I said good afternoon to an aunt who turned out to be Turkish while we had coffee, and she noticed my jin/jiyan/azadî tattoo and said, oh, that's why I'm here (in Germany). because of jin, jiyan, azadî. she was PKK, she said, a heval to the cause. had to escape Turkish prison and swim over to the EU to claim refugee status.

and I thought like: I've known this lady for 10 minutes, a German would never ever admit to me to having been part of a criminalised org like the PKK, because "opsec". in fact people here would never do the things the PKK does, even as nazis continue to take over, because "escalation" and "surveillance" etc. and I have to think, what's the point of an opsec that's completely paralysing. like the other day I talked about my scuffles with nazis and someone said: and you just drop that so casually, but the thing is, for me this *is* casual, this is like, child's play. you see nazis in the subway you should *at the very minimum* punch them, but what we actually need is like, community self-defence?? one middle-aged girl punching nazis once or twice is hardly less performative than demos. the nazis have like, farm compounds stockpiling weapons, what are we even *doing*.

what we're doing is historical unprecedented anti-AfD protests, I guess, that I joined too, just before the AfD got the lead in polls. like the Pussy March, like #elenão, like Lützerath. I'm just so tired of protesting to lose.

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