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Hi, I (Allēna) am back in front and low-key panicking…

I know that the people who know me will probably be like “what else is new” but I’ve honestly been so hung up on the fact that it’s been ten years since Xavier died this month that I forgot that all of the albums that I wrote and recorded in the wake of losing him will also be turning 10 as well until I saw a video of my Painter Guy headmate playing my arrangement of “Heroes” by David Bowie on a piano he found in the hospital we go to??? So that’s kinda fucking me up.

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DUvyJXxl9de/?igsh=MWFlYTdtcTY4MnJkZQ==

I honestly didn’t think I would live this long. I know a lot of people when I was 18-19 certainly didn’t think I would live this long (I was a hot fuckin mess and it took me years to get out of that tailspin) so while I’m none too happy about having to figure out how to promote a metric fuckton of albums on what is soon to be the ten year anniversary of their release, I am also trying to be compassionate toward tiny grieving past Lēna and keep in mind that I didn’t have a blessed clue that I would live to see 28-29, my depression was so goddamn bad and I was constantly trying to blot myself off the face of the Earth and writing albums instead of doing worse dumb shit. As badly as I want to go back and kick Past Lēna and to some extent, Past Eight in the ‘nads for writing and recording music like they were running out of time in 2016-17, they really didn’t know what the fuck else to do and had just lost Xavier. So I can’t really be all that angry. That being said, a bitch is fucking tired and I don’t have anything close to a promotion strategy for any of this shit. I don’t even have regular access to a piano anymore.

So yeah. There is all of that to contend with.

Wish me mother fucking luck.

-Allēna

#Copingmechanisms #DavidBowie #eight #grief #healingFromTrauma #HomeRecording #OurMusic #processingtrauma #tenthAnniversary #traumaversary #whatTheFuckDoIDo #Xavier

Lazarus Halliwell (probably gaily horsing around) on Instagram: "Holy shit, it's been almost ten years since I arranged this. The emotional Moment of sorts from "Heroes" by David Bowie, arranged by me (Allēna) in 2016 for my EP Nothing Will Keep Us Together, with tweaks made by a newer headmate who currently does not have a name. Performed Friday, 12 February 2026."

3 likes, 0 comments - opensorceryy on February 14, 2026: "Holy shit, it's been almost ten years since I arranged this. The emotional Moment of sorts from "Heroes" by David Bowie, arranged by me (Allēna) in 2016 for my EP Nothing Will Keep Us Together, with tweaks made by a newer headmate who currently does not have a name. Performed Friday, 12 February 2026.".

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