It literally was a mistake in the system why I was born and had to be a burden. Now, I'm stuck here until someone kills me or I die. I'm literally sick of all this crap and my existence hurts people but if I take myself out, I hurt people, might ruin myself and not die, or I have thought of my mind of total damnation.

It was a cruel joke, and I want this to be over somedays. I want to be useful and if I'm not, I don't deserve to be alive. I don't know why I'm a pathetic, worthless loser but I hate it and it doesn't do anything to help me or anyone around me. What's the point of this crap? I'm exhausted. What's wrong with me?

They should make lobotomies available again.

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