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I originally came to this instance to explore sexuality—I guess the instance name gives that away! But it turns out I’ve been preoccupied all along with something else instead: gender identity, and being inspired by the journeys of many trans people.

When I arrived here, I saw myself as bigender. I felt entirely female on the inside, and have done so for many years. But the outside was… well… something else, something I don’t really identify with.

I coped with that split for a long time. I was raised a stoic in post-war Britain when rationing was still in place. You made do and you kept quiet about it. But now that I’ve emigrated to a different country, that stoicism has cracked, and I just can’t play those silly societal expectation games anymore. I’m living for me, not for society, and I get one shot at it. And I admit it: the dysphoria is real, it’s horrible, it’s debilitating, and I want it gone.

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Hi, I’m Stim. I’m here to be with likeminded people, though I’m quite shy and may not post much.

My pronouns are they/them. I’m #bigender, which for me means dual-binary not non-binary.

I’m very #transfriendly and supportive. About half my partners have been #transwomen and half ciswomen.

My avatar and profile header show electrical sparks because I love #estim, especially as #cbt. Just one #kink of many.

I’d love an #orchiectomy, but I’d lose my best torture target—they need regular frying. Meds help with #feminization.

Please read my profile too. #introduction #introductions

== Results from bdsmtest.org ==
92% Masochist
84% Submissive
81% Rope bunny
71% Switch
67% Degradee
59% Rigger
52% Experimentalist
50% Sadist
48% Voyeur
46% Brat
36% Vanilla
35% Primal (Prey)
33% Dominant
30% Slave
16% Primal (Hunter)
16% Master/Mistress
15% Daddy/Mommy
12% Owner
11% Ageplayer
11% Brat tamer
8% Degrader
6% Non-monogamist
5% Pet
1% Exhibitionist
0% Boy/Girl