Is nerve growth and regenerative medicine a pipedream? I want to do a phalloplasty after my terrible, non-consented, vaginoplasty, ideally in 4-8 years. But since I suffered necrosis on my neoclitoris and the tissue is heavily scared, I don't know what to do.

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My bottom dysphoria is hell.

I don't go a day without thinking about, how much I wish to have a penis, how badly my surgery was fucked up, how I cannot express myself sexually, how I cannot feel comfortable sexually around other women.

I remember before I got surgery, I told myself, "It can't get any worse", it could.

I suffered from necrosis in my clitoris, it was completely amputated. I have NO sexual sensitivity in my genitals. And an infection magnet.

Today my worse fear has been revealed, my clitoris is irreversibly damaged. I'm not the first trans woman to regret surgery with Belinky. He's a monster and he ruined my life. I cannot even begin on how terribly he handled everything related to the surgery before and after.

Geniunely the worst person I met, and that person turns out to be a gender affirming surgeon, taking advantage on the most vunerable emotionally.

I was describing all the wonderful things I wanted to do with the person I loved and I was answered:

"maybe. But I know one day You'll find someone you can do all that with, im sure of it"

Well, it wasn't just about me, just that I did wanted these things.
But that she did so too, and she felt happy doing so.
I became so fond of her that our relationship stopped being about just what I want.

We were one.