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Aspiring Writer, Graphic Designer, Survivor, Video Editor, Editorial Designer, Tech Nerd (I LOVE CRTS), Communist, Pretentious, GURPS aficionada, Linux Debian User, etc.
I love books, comics, TTRPGs, Board Games, Videogames, films, TV Shows, everything really.
Argentinian gothic bisexual trans woman with cPTSD in her 20s, 3.5 years HRT, actively looking to revert vaginoplasty. I have blue hair and pronouns.
Also the Swag Messiah.
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@Tumoreslaru It's ok. But yes, I did ask around a few surgeons around here, they told me that this is not the kind of surgery that could be done in Argentina.
I appreciate it, means a lot to me.
@Tumoreslaru I... Operated with Belinky, I did my vaginoplasty with him... He's a monster, I don't want him to even touch me again in my life.
He manipulated me, coherced me, lied to me, and then neglected and operated poorly on me
I'm thinking about suing him, I thought you knew.
@Tumoreslaru That's the thing, I cannot find people who've been through what I've been...
Yes, phalloplasties are done all the time. But trans women (not detransitioners) who suffered necrosis, got their nerves and scars healed and underwent surgery? That's never happened I believe
Most professionals don't know what to tell me. I've asked, some refused to take my case deeming it too risky, some want me to detransition and not heal my wounds before...
I don't know who to ask for help anymore.
Is nerve growth and regenerative medicine a pipedream? I want to do a phalloplasty after my terrible, non-consented, vaginoplasty, ideally in 4-8 years. But since I suffered necrosis on my neoclitoris and the tissue is heavily scared, I don't know what to do.
#Trans #transwoman #transfem #MTf #Medicine #Regenerativemedicine #dysphoria #advice #adviceneeded #nerverepair #experimental #mentalhealth #MedTech #phallo
My bottom dysphoria is hell.
I don't go a day without thinking about, how much I wish to have a penis, how badly my surgery was fucked up, how I cannot express myself sexually, how I cannot feel comfortable sexually around other women.
I remember before I got surgery, I told myself, "It can't get any worse", it could.
I suffered from necrosis in my clitoris, it was completely amputated. I have NO sexual sensitivity in my genitals. And an infection magnet.
Today my worse fear has been revealed, my clitoris is irreversibly damaged. I'm not the first trans woman to regret surgery with Belinky. He's a monster and he ruined my life. I cannot even begin on how terribly he handled everything related to the surgery before and after.
Geniunely the worst person I met, and that person turns out to be a gender affirming surgeon, taking advantage on the most vunerable emotionally.
I was describing all the wonderful things I wanted to do with the person I loved and I was answered:
"maybe. But I know one day You'll find someone you can do all that with, im sure of it"
Well, it wasn't just about me, just that I did wanted these things.
But that she did so too, and she felt happy doing so.
I became so fond of her that our relationship stopped being about just what I want.
We were one.