#today #Sunday #JoinIn I never knew that porcupines hung out in trees! I never saw one on the trails by the river, but was told to look up!

Wait, what? Plant based Reeses? Did regular Reeses contain meat?

#today I get a day off! Today I get to see my friend for lunch. Today, the possibilities are limitless! So much I can do, so many things I can take care of, I don’t know where to begin. Maybe I will just lay here for now contemplating and watching the sunrise. Below is a photo of a sunrise from my backyard. Clouds make the sunrise and sunsets here so colorful…

#today was so heartbreakingly sad for me. It is amazing how a moment can suddenly overcome my entire sense of self and balance. I failed to just watch with curiosity and compassion, and instead I drowned in my anger and grief. Metaphorically crawling out now with a little help, but the sadness clings to me still. I know it is a part of me, but when it comes out, people leave. There is no safe place left except in solitude, where I can sit with my demon and debate why anything matters.

#joinin #today #haiku I was contemplating why I write haiku that are “…dark…morose…sad…” People who have read my haiku often ask if I am doing well. I admit, they are on the dark side, but I think I perceived the process. When challenged with a haiku prompt, I see and feel the emotion. From there I go within myself and break off a piece of the darkness to transform into haiku. It is cathartic and I feel lighter unburdening some of my angst. Does that make sense?

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My #SilentSunday #today After internet searches about losing motivation to do anything, I am sitting in silence. Mental health experts say that I should do something, make a change, go after what I want and desire, connect with people, and take small steps. All that takes motivation, desire, and a good answer to the question, “Why?” …I have no answer right now. Can anyone tell me why I should try when I feel safe in my silence? (I see the problem of asking a community when I am a recluse)

My counselor suggested I try and make connections with others #joinin but I am really confused. What does that really mean… connections? Is this some form of connection? Do connections happen in the moment with strangers whom you’ll never see again, or do connections have to endure some passage of time with someone familiar? I guess I ran out of therapy time before I got my answer, so I ask the universe…