#3GoodThings

1. @inoru_no_hoshi and am love them so much.

2. our bed.

3. ceiling fans

76/42 BP and this is why we check this before we go to bed and potentially take our night are med, which is a blood pressure med that lowers blood pressure even more.

not tonight though I guess.

photographic evidence in case anyone wondered, but this is still above the personal danger zone whereupon start remedying salt and hydration and if it persists call EMTs etc. still. I just casually chugged a bottle of Gatorade, I'm going to hit the nicotine a bit as I settle down for sleep, and I'll take some salt pills in the morning because I don't want to drag around for them at night when I want to be going to bed.

#3GoodThings

1. apouae @inoru_no_hoshi is the best. polyamory is good.

2. groceries. kitchenware. both existing and new.

3. found my meds, didn't forget my night beds today. did stay up kind of absurdly late. but that happens.

turning off the air conditioning and bed now.

#3GoodThings

1. @inoru_no_hoshi keeping me company and body-doubling while I picked up around the desk so that I can hopefully move the desk back to the back house when I have someone over.

2. someone responding to my mutual aid post with actual direct aid; the potential of making a new friend as well.

3. learning the advocacy needed to let myself live as largely non-speaking as I want to instead of forcing verbal communication and burning out and ruining my chances of accommodation when it inevitably becomes necessary. anything I want to accomplish I can do while largely non-speaking.

it's the same as that I don't owe anybody hearing, I don't owe anybody my voice either.

I fucking dare them to tell me I can't do it because I can't talk in most settings. I'll have their hide so fast, because that's flat out discrimination and it's not a safety-sensitive position where the qualifications for the job credentials overrule the ADA and are allowed and required to exclude certain disabilities.

several other non-speaking or partially non-speaking friends have said they'd be happy to see a counselor who also has a communication device or similar uses AAC in any form.

look at Ghost, that shayne punim she's got and the attitude she's got her head on her paws with.

now that I've gotten your attention i want to draw your attention to the #MutualAid post that I have made over on my other account.

don't want to repeat much here, just that things are tight and I need to raise the money so that we can survive July & August. everything, even a dollar, helps us so much.

https://kolektiva.social/@camilla/114792379346556560

I have a serious question for the #transfem #transfeminine #transfemme communities; as a boy wearing dresses (I am transmasc, male-appearing on T post top-surgery, my gender identity is queer and boy depending on the time of day or what way the wind is blowing) as now that my masculinity doesn't feel threatened every day (not quite the words I want there; I don't know how to explain it other than that there's a huge metaphorical and physical weight off my chest now, and it unlocked doors that I had chained and barred shut for so long) I feel much freer to enjoy the feminine side of me that I truly neglected pre-transition.

I wear both dresses and skirts, especially ones that were mine pre-transition,. to paraphrase Suzy Izzard, it's just me wearing a dress, not cross-dressing or anything, just expressing myself in ways I never felt comfortable to as a girl.

there's some pictures of me hanging out around this account under the tag #SelfieADay, including a recent one of me wearing a dress. I'm 5'5", what's trying to grow into a full beard but mostly is on the sides and under my chin at least an inch and a half full length, about an inch practical length because it's curly. visible chest hair, back hair, leg hair etc that I have no interest in removing, and my hair is buzzed but it's always covered for religious reasons and some leftover modesty practise from pre-transition.

I'd like to hear anything someone (trans, fem inclined in whatever way, not interested in hearing from other trans masc folk except if someone also dresses in gender-transgessive fashion and has experience doing so outside of drag circumstances or whatever; local #blorbo folks also welcome to chime in regardless of identity/identification) feels is important to say so that I can make sure I'm respectful to y'all's communities etc. I never want anything I do to negatively impact other trans people, and I very much try to educate people when I have spoons that anyone can wear a dress, etc.

I am also fortunate enough to be in Los Angeles, and while I'm not in the heart of gay territory down here, I am also not out in 47-supporter land; and most comments I get are supportive (where I thank them and them gently inform them that I'm male and this is for comfort and fun) or compliments.

I bought what's probably going to be my primary summer sundress today (in three colours all the exact same dress because I am That Kind of autistic lmao). it has pockets, not quite enough for my phone but my vape can go in there and such. and it's super comfortable and therefore the same sort of same clothes I do with men's clothing.

so yeah. open forum, be nice, if you're rude I'm going to show you the door. I know I'm friends with a lot of transfem folks, I am mostly interested in their opinions over strangers'.

haha oops almost hit the character count over here.

#3GoodThings

1. my spouse @inoru_no_hoshi. by now it should be plenty evident to everyone that am crazily and madly in love with them. of course, crazily and madly are everyday adjectives in this house.

2. our adorable cat even if she insists on walking on me.

3. having enough money so as to make things not into the huge emergency. I fucked up one of my vapes (thankfully not my favourite one) by accidentally putting it down in a glass with water in it. don't do what I did.

I thought to dry it out in a bag of rice, but that was not going to be viable as the rice was also getting into the mouthpiece of the vape and disposable vapes don't come apart enough to be able to dry them out that way.

so, welp. that's out in the bin now (no, not a good disposal but nothing will take them and it was making fizzing electronics sounds so I wanted it out here).

but I have plenty of vapes, I have more arriving whenever my friend and I ship my stuff (my friend is very busy working), like. I'm not wanting in this regard, I'm pretty spoiled for having multiple choices and the easy ability to get more.

anyway bed now that the excitement is over.

#3GoodThings

1. the light of my life, my wonderful spouse @inoru_no_hoshi, whom I am going to go join in bed shortly.
2. taking the time to go to a meeting today with my father, and the nice potluck and seeing folks.
3. OCD medication, without which none of this schoolwork would be possible.