Pizza da Campbellite

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I am, apparently, in the weird Christian Twitter group, so I'm checking this out...

So, a long time ago, I was taken by the fact that the tree of life was forbidden in Genesis (at the beginning of time), but given freely in Revelation (at the end of time).

Today, I observed that Jacob was given a new name on Genesis 32, and we will be given new names in Revelation 2.

Do these corresponding scriptures mean anything?

Do not love the world or the things in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him. For all that is in the world—the desires of the flesh and the desires of the eyes and pride of life—is not from the Father but is from the world. And the world is passing away along with its desires, but whoever does the will of God abides forever.
1 John 2:15-17, ESV

I have loved the world.

Who am I trying to kid... I still love the world!
The desires of the flesh: a 20oz porter house steak, a pint of stout, sitting all day in front of the TV watching movies while others cater to my every whim...
The desires of the eye: a beautiful woman, a mountaintop view, the ebb and flow of the tide, a bright city with a dazzling night life...
The pride of life: a wonderful family, a successful business, money, big house and fancy car, travels...

That's the life!

But what's to gain?

Is my legacy something of my crafting? Does my work on earth mean anything to people other than me? Is anyone's life better because I sat on my couch for four hours while my wife mows the lawn and fixes dinner? (Other than mine, of course...)

Until 2002, that's how I lived. Sex, booze, and rock and roll. Hedonistic lifestyle. Get my pleasure however I could.

But then God proved to me that He is real. I begged His forgiveness and asked Him to make me the person He wants me to be. Radical change followed.

I now try to focus on the things beyond. Quite frankly, I suck at it. But every day I'm getting a little better.

This verse reminds me to focus on things above, to love the things of Heaven, which are far greater than anything this place could offer.

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First off, thanks to @JulieB, @WordyAnchorite, and @tx_tartan for responding with encouragement. I really do appreciate it, Eben if I don't have time to reply.

I think I figured something out:
1. Mamaw has alzheimers and requires around the clock care.
2. I injured my shoulder in Feb, got a steroid shot, and moved on.
3. My daughter injured her knee and needed surgery
4. I re-injured my shoulder requiring more than a steroid shot, but it took 4 weeks to get thru the system. I couldn't do anything but paperwork at pizza.
5. My oldest daughter had a trip booked and couldn't change.
6. My wife injured her foot and 3 weeks to get thru the system.

During all of this, my youngest (knee injury) had a birthday with friends, and her boyfriend (with whom I have issues anyway) kept coming to the house.

My injury had a lot to do with it. I had to admit "I can't do that," and let someone help me. That was the source of a lot of depression.

Today I returned to work with looser restrictions. I'm training assistants. I'm mentoring another GM. And I felt on top of the world.

I'm chalking it up to my injury which precluded me from being the good husband when everyone else needed help.

Still getting counseling, and still going to AA. But, by the grace of God, better.

I'm going 😡 crazy.
I used to be sociable. I used to enjoy people.
Now I don't.
My wife doesn't get it. Nobody does. Im just the grumpy asshole.
I need to get away. I need to unwind. I have no place to do that because too many people live at my house and I can't deny them a place. I've mentored kids from broken homes in the past and promised them an open door to my house.
But I don't want to do that right now. And I'm the asshole.
I can't get in to see a counselor that I can afford until 25 July. That's nearly 3 weeks from when I began searching for help. I've gone to AA meetings and they temporarily lift my mood.
I tried calling one of those help lines. Since I'm not suicidal, they don't want to help. I tried calling a veteran help line. They told me to go to the quacks at VA. (Long story, misdiagnosis, wrong prescription with life changing effects, can't sue the govt)
Now everyone is mad at me. I'm really trying to keep my cool. But because I don't put of a happy face and join the crowd - which is extremely stressful - I'm the asshole.
So I'm driven to the conclusion that nobody really gives a shit and I may as well just take off.
But I know that's incorrect.
I want to drink. There's a reason I haven't had any in ten years.
I've tried praying, but I don't think God is listening to me.

I have a houseful of people. I'm not feeling particularly sociable, and I have to work tonight.

So I'm in my room, watching a documentary about two of my favorite albums: 2112 and Moving Pictures by Rush.

But Protestants were protesting Catholicism, hence the name.

https://noc.social/@todayilearned/110719662035819505

Today I learned (@[email protected])

Attached: 1 image TIL "Methinks the lady doth protest too much" is meant opposite to how it is used. It's not meant to doubt someone denying something, but rather someone proclaiming something. "Protest" (pruh-test) is a different word than (pro-test) that means to profess in favor. This is the origin of "Protestant" https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_lady_doth_protest_too_much,_methinks https://www.reddit.com/r/todayilearned/comments/150jw5l/til_methinks_the_lady_doth_protest_too_much_is/

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#NotThatAnyoneActuallyCares but I'm posting it anyway.
Today is day 3,542 of my sobriety. And last week I started attending AA meetings.
I'm not worried about drinking, quite honestly, but the emotions that are not being kept in check by alcohol. Most evident is the rage.
I've been called The Hulk on occasion, because the mild mannered Campbellite sometimes turns into an out of control green monster. Those episodes are becoming more frequent.
AA helps. People there describe me to a "T". So I'm not the only person going thru this. And I am trying to find help - a sponsor, a guide - to help me actually complete the steps. I believe working the steps will help keep the emotions at bay.
If you're the praying type, please consider paying as I enter this new phase. I'm 57 years old. This is a huge thing.

Shoulder injury precludes lifting. At grocery store with Mrs Campbellite. She wanted a massive watermelon at the bottom of a huge box. I couldn't help her. Another guy came by, gave me a very judgmental side eye, and helped her with the melon.

I felt about 3 inches tall.