@timamor I remember once thinking, "Lord, I will die for you."
And He asked,"But will you LIVE for me?"
That is much, much harder. Sin is waiting for us, trying to steal our minds from God, to break that connection. The enemy, by striving to separate us from the Father, tricks us into believing:
1. That we are worthless
2. "This isn't so bad..."
3. "That guy needs to be hurt."
4. "One drink would be all right."
5. <Insert temptation here >
Once the enemy has succeeded at drawing our attention, he needs do no more. We are paying attention to our own flesh, not the Spirit. And we spiral downward. We are no longer living for Him.
Yeah, it would be easy to be a martyr for Him. It's even harder to be His every day.