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| Location: | Philly |
Gonna be migrating instances soon. Thanks to @arcade (who did literally everything) I’m gonna be on a tiny two-person instance soon. =]
It’s gonna take some setup still though.
Drag queens are not a danger to society.
White supremacists are a danger to society.
I’ve been having an impossibly hard time lately. My doctor just encouraged me to submit a short term disability claim, and she gave me info for a lawyer so I can apply for SSDI.
This has been so many years now that I’ve struggled to maintain a job. This is the single best job I’ve ever had in terms of their willingness to accommodate my limitations, but it’s still not accessible enough for me. I’ve got way too many frequent medicine changes and far too much housing instability to really maintain a healthy enough routine to hold down a full time job.
Idk if I’m really ready to go the route of applying for social security benefits again. That was a nightmare last time. But chances are very good that I’ll at least be able to get short term disability through my job to cover me to the end of January. It only pays like 40-50% of my income, but it’s something to work with and I’m all paid on my rent for January already since I’m moving.
I really want to be well enough to be able to build a routine around this job, but it takes everything I’ve got to maintain it, and there’s just too many changes right now for that. Hopefully things will feel more manageable in February.
This reference often seems to fall flat on people, and it has me wondering:
Do you remember Cuil Theory?
This is clearly a much more complicated and nuanced situation than I realized. The only point I’m making is that I’m tired, have limited ability, and now I can’t access the community in the same way. Wherever the fault lies, I just wanna figure out what to do from here.
If anyone has advice on a smaller instance to join, I’d love to know.
Honestly, I haven’t been as into mastodon lately anyway. There’s generally only like 2-3 people that actually interact with me. Between the learning curve and all the weird things going on behind the scenes that I have no knowledge or control over, maybe this just isn’t a good social network fit for me. (which is disappointing because I’ve met some really cool folks)
I just want to share art and talk with cool people, and not have to worry about whether or not people I care about will still be able to see my posts, or if some weird argument in the background is going to cause me to lose connection.
Say what you will about big social media companies controlling who sees what with algorithms, but honestly, how is two major instances blocking each other any different?
I guess I’m just starting to think that this platform isn’t for me.
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Aeryn Luminkith
dmi 💽 
undead enby of the apocalypse