Management during town halls: "Here's how one engineer stopping, and thinking, saved the company eleventeen billion dollars a month."

Management during one-on-ones: "Your value to the company is in keeping the long view in mind and making good choices for your team and the company"

Management during an AI cheerleading session: "We need engineers to think up the next evolution of <justifying our outrageous AI investment by somehow changing the entire business paradigm>"

The company, the other 99.99% of the time:
"NO THINK. ONLY DO. Why so many points?? Why is this THREE not ONE hour??? Can't you just DEPLOY?"

Seattle walk/transit rant but

5th and 145th being closed to pedestrians from the Shoreline south station is so fucking crazy.

The entire area around the station has been an enormous fuck you to people on foot for years at this point.

Is there any kind of project out there about all the capabilities you can host on a neighborhood server cluster?

I'm just obsessed with this idea but have no clue how to put everything together and evaluate if this is really possible yet.

Missing a bunch of telehealth things because I get sucked into either work or not work during the day and forget is not helping my mood.

Brain won't let go of this whole being everyone's second choice and never more thing and it's an enormous drag. Like nobody ever comes to me if there's any other options, people wonder why I don't stick around when nobody ever seems to reach out.

Sucks to have a brain disorder that makes it impossible to know if you're neglected by everyone around you or you just feel that way sometimes, or what you're supposed to do to fix it when everyone is in constant attention-sapping capitalist fucking hell.

Once again wondering if this is just the fucking generic adderall talking, since it seems like I get like this the worst when I don't get the name brand stuff even though it's supposedly identical.

I guess after two months of getting 25% more sleep it turns out my perpetually fucked up mental health isn't going to be fixed by an earlier bedtime huh.