Missing a bunch of telehealth things because I get sucked into either work or not work during the day and forget is not helping my mood.

Brain won't let go of this whole being everyone's second choice and never more thing and it's an enormous drag. Like nobody ever comes to me if there's any other options, people wonder why I don't stick around when nobody ever seems to reach out.

Sucks to have a brain disorder that makes it impossible to know if you're neglected by everyone around you or you just feel that way sometimes, or what you're supposed to do to fix it when everyone is in constant attention-sapping capitalist fucking hell.

Once again wondering if this is just the fucking generic adderall talking, since it seems like I get like this the worst when I don't get the name brand stuff even though it's supposedly identical.

I guess after two months of getting 25% more sleep it turns out my perpetually fucked up mental health isn't going to be fixed by an earlier bedtime huh.