What help me survive right now?
-my cat who is super caring and nice either on my body or on the bed a lot of the time although she normally is much more active and only likes body contact on some occasions
-shitty reality TV shows which have nothing to do with my life and quiz shows
-playing cards with my assistance and talking about bullshit

Going’s to a Christmas celebration and feeling cute
Especially as I will see someone I have a crush on

Today’s Rune is Ansuz
This Rune is about Air Communication and also Breath
What comes up for me is take a breath and listen to the messages you receive not only from outside but also from your body, intuition etc
Also communicate what you feel/want only that way you can let others know where you stand and what you want and you can send a Message out to call that in your life what you envision
#runes #pagan #norsepagan #witchcraft

My cat is very funny normally she doesn’t come in the bathroom but today she visited me even poking her head over the edge of the bathtub meowing very loudly and high-pitched
I don’t know if she wanted to warn me from the water on what she wanted but I found it very funny

Was at a kinky flee market and although there were a lot of cis gay men around I had some fun
I never saw so many dildos and a lot of those I saw for the first time I felt so dumb somehow
In the end I bought a leather shirt leather gloves a purple sort of dildo a bullet vibrator and a Make-up set in metallic colours
I was also attracted to a big black dildo but I felt ashamed buying something like this when I’m not a gay guy and don’t have sex with anyone atm
But maybe next time

Today I pulled the rune kenaz which can be translate to torch and for me it means things coming to light things uncovering themself also things that we might not want to see but that hold a lot of treasures for us it can also mean ceiling light in the dark not only seeing problems but also solutions or at least other sides of things we struggle with for me it’s a day of relaxation I have realised that I have hurt somebody although I wanted to please him but it went completely in the wrong direction also for me the Torch fire stands for sexuality bring me a lot of insight into my sexuality today #pagan #runes

The rune I pulled yesterday was Naudhiz w Need or Necessity
The funny thing is yesterday I felt my cravings more sexually as well as food wise which felt so frustrating I ordered a burger in the middle of the night which I haven’t done in weeks and don’t want to do anymore because it’s too expensive
But maybe it’s also a good thing because now I feel those needs I can start finding ways to meet them in a way that’s good for me
Maybe also realising that especially my sexual needs may not be fulfilled right now but it’s ok and worth it to work on fulfilling them even if it might take time to find someone where at least our needs partly match and who sees me as desirable
Even if it’s hard I’m thankful for the Naudhiz energy showing me my needs somehow
#runes #divination #pagan #norsepagan #witchcraft

Soo haircut and fresh colour done
Now the play party can come

I’m soooo happy I just got a bag of felting wool from @oxytocinated with which I. I can make some Christmas presents now
Thanks again
#needlefelting #wool

Today is a very productive day for me
On midday I went to the market to buy a Christmas present for a friend and I got something nice
Now I just come home from the Shopping in the City first I was at a shop for folk musical instruments where I bought a Jaw harp
Then I was at a crystal shop where I bought five bracelets 1 gold obsidian 1 prehnite 1 Rhodonite 1 sapphire 1 smokey Quartz a hematite ring and an apophyllite raw stone
Now I’m back home under my blankets and so cold still that I don’t know how I will get warm
I feel a bit guilty because most of the stuff was for myself and also can’t afford to spend this much money for myself and other people #musicalinstrument #crystals #witchcraft #spiritual #musician