Jennifer RayeTrying to do indie dev keeps looking less and less practical for me in the long run... despite how ridiculously passionate I am about it... yet working somewhere also seems out of reach... meanwhile I'm still trying to juggle so much real life shit like insurance and stuff and it's wearing me down so much lately. I feel hopeless. Maybe I should just give up on games.
Maybe I am just a silly entitled millennial idk anymore.
Ugh I got myself crying yet again... I've been doing that a lot this month...
I'm sorry a whine and complain so much... I always feel like a spoiled brat when I do that about stuff like this... Like I feel entitled... I just desperately wish things aren't going the way they're going. Like life is going to get ten times harder no matter what route I take..
Sometimes I desperately wish I could escape this shitty fucking country. Like it would be better anywhere else though. I gotta put up with what I have now. What the fuck am I even saying anymore. I feel upset and angry and desperate.
Can I just run away?
I wish there was such an easy solution to these problems.
WHY
DO
I
CONTINUE
LIVING
IN
THIS
HELL
DO
I
CONTINUE
LIVING
IN
THIS
HELL
I'm sorry, I'll shut up now.
Mitchell Urgero@jennraye If you want to talk about it, you are free to message me on fb: m.me/mitchell.urgero :) I am always around to help (Unless I am asleep of course then I wont hear my phone lol)
MOVED@jenn_raye there is a lot worth complaining about these days
reembodied@jenn_raye you literally just asked for:
- a job that pays you what is necessary for you to exist
- that also allows sufficient free time and energy to do a thing you love.
That's not entitled at all to ask for. The bar is being set very, very low here, and those requests are not new.
Like... The original idea behind the 8hr work day & 5days/week schedule being advocated for for forever(which would provide all fiscal needs & build wealth) was to have 8:8:8 ratio of work:sleep:your passions.
@jenn_raye What I mean is-
It is not entitled
to want to be allowed to exist
and spend your free time
doing what you love
The Old Fenreliania (MOVED)@jenn_raye There's lots of ways to make games. It may be that you have to spend less time on gamedev to take care of yourself until you have a more stable situation - it could be that gamedev is really important for your mental wellbeing. But you have a lot of time ahead of you to figure this out.
Sorry I don't have clear answers but I believe you can find something that works for you - even if it sucks for a bit to get where you want to be. Just make sure you take care of yourself 💜
Sorry I don't have clear answers but I believe you can find something that works for you - even if it sucks for a bit to get where you want to be. Just make sure you take care of yourself 💜