Trying to do indie dev keeps looking less and less practical for me in the long run... despite how ridiculously passionate I am about it... yet working somewhere also seems out of reach... meanwhile I'm still trying to juggle so much real life shit like insurance and stuff and it's wearing me down so much lately. I feel hopeless. Maybe I should just give up on games.

Maybe I am just a silly entitled millennial idk anymore.

Ugh I got myself crying yet again... I've been doing that a lot this month...

I'm sorry a whine and complain so much... I always feel like a spoiled brat when I do that about stuff like this... Like I feel entitled... I just desperately wish things aren't going the way they're going. Like life is going to get ten times harder no matter what route I take..

Sometimes I desperately wish I could escape this shitty fucking country. Like it would be better anywhere else though. I gotta put up with what I have now. What the fuck am I even saying anymore. I feel upset and angry and desperate.

Can I just run away?

I wish there was such an easy solution to these problems.

WHY
DO
I
CONTINUE
LIVING
IN
THIS
HELL