@jenn_raye There's lots of ways to make games. It may be that you have to spend less time on gamedev to take care of yourself until you have a more stable situation - it could be that gamedev is really important for your mental wellbeing. But you have a lot of time ahead of you to figure this out.
Sorry I don't have clear answers but I believe you can find something that works for you - even if it sucks for a bit to get where you want to be. Just make sure you take care of yourself 💜