Trying to do indie dev keeps looking less and less practical for me in the long run... despite how ridiculously passionate I am about it... yet working somewhere also seems out of reach... meanwhile I'm still trying to juggle so much real life shit like insurance and stuff and it's wearing me down so much lately. I feel hopeless. Maybe I should just give up on games.
@jenn_raye There's lots of ways to make games. It may be that you have to spend less time on gamedev to take care of yourself until you have a more stable situation - it could be that gamedev is really important for your mental wellbeing. But you have a lot of time ahead of you to figure this out.
Sorry I don't have clear answers but I believe you can find something that works for you - even if it sucks for a bit to get where you want to be. Just make sure you take care of yourself 💜