Both of my #exes just left for the airport ( one was visiting ) and I am bereft but unable to feel #anger.

For a week i watched them be #happy and that’s why I’m #crying now , why I cried most nights to myself to sleep — they are happy — that is more valuable to me than any relationship.
But I will lose my friends in both of them. #friendship is hard & losing it hurts more than anything

Can someone tell me why ?

#trans #queer #lgbtqiaplus #loss #depression #sadness #hurt