Reading (and crying) while reading an article from 2011 about “Religious Trauma Syndrome.” I started deconstructing and formally left Catholicism in 2022. It starts with learning and education.
But now comes the emotional part. I feel lonely and like a kid because I don’t have the coping skills to deal with big emotions like fear.
#ReligiousTraumaSyndrome #RTS #ExCatholic #Deconstruction #ExChristian
To be honest, what’s compounding an already heavy emotional process is trying to do so while Christian fascists try to take over the country. There are just so many triggers in the news and media all the time.
How do I separate myself from a theology that is trying to take over our country?
Putting this out there not for sympathy but because I feel lonely but I know I’m not alone. So if you stumble across this at any point just know you aren’t the first person to go through this intense process of rediscovery and you won’t be the last. ❤️
Part of this process for me me was accepting that my parents did not love me for who I was, but loved a version of me they created in their minds. A version that might eventually repent my gayness.
I deserved parents who loved me for myself. Who would have supported me as I grew into my actual self.
I mourned the death of the parents I never had as part of this process. I never spoke to my biological parents again.
@Giamedin my dad passed away a year and a half ago. So grief is compounding all of this, too.
One of the best things in the queer community is loving each other for who we are. I’ve never felt more unconditional love than I have in the queer community.
❤️
@dleszcynski You absolutely are not alone. I rage-quit the church in 2020 after being taken advantage of (for my skills) for far too long. I miss dearly the community of musicians there, and playing music together, but I cannot in good conscience be part of an institution that has caused (and still causes) so much pain and suffering.
It’s all so hard to reconcile and process through.
If you were right here, I’d offer a big hug.
David Leszcynski (he/him)
Giamedin
Haywood Jabuzoff